should i draw the line here ? Things get tougher and tougher in the future and im not even certain if i can handle it or not . I understand all the adults out there putting up with their bills, bosses, and everything else, and im only a student in high school. i think im weak. teachers being 2 faced and dealing with the amount of work i get every night in a boarding school, being enclosed in a school for such a long time being separated from the rest of the world. my parents are divorced, even though i have been in this situation for some time, every time i think about it, it breaks me inside. so the thing is… im not sure if i should go on. who knows, i might be gone in a few days, weeks, or months. i feel that no one understands how i feel. thats one of the main problems ive got. people not understanding me.
im sitting on the roof of my apartment every night im out of school thinking about my life. all the good things and bad things about my life. and about the amount of times ive closed my eyes and ears to the insults people give me without realizing it. yes, i am sensitive, as sensitive as a bubble, one little poke would break me. the only things which keep me living till this very minute are my few friends, the music( sounds stupid , i know ) and most importantly my mother whom i dont see so often.
ive always wanted to be the person who wanted to change the world, end poverty, make people happy, give the poor a home. but everything im trying to do doesnt seem to be acknowledged by others. i feel like a shadow.
okok… so lets get back to reality… i seriously dont know why im writing this… okok… im suicidal… and ive got no clue how this letter/post what so ever is going to help me… so ill just end it here… i just wish everyone out there GOOD LUCK