I’m 17 years old. I want help. But I think it’s to late. I cut, to get rid of the pain. I want to just die. I’m a coward for not just letting my self bleed to death. I don’t want to be put in some hospital. I don’t know what to do. I can’t stand mylife..anymore.
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I feel invisible in school, if I was just gone. No one would notice. I feel like i am wearing a mask, why can’t i just be happy? I’m am still here but I don’t know how much longer I can take this.
Going to a hospital isn’t to bad. I was in one. It was kinda nice not having to worry. Everything is on a scheduale for you. I still have my times and I like knowing I have a plae where I can clear my mind and no one will judge me. And it kinda makes you realize life has more to it. Believe it or not everyone has feelings of lonelyness. When I was in high school, no one knew I was suicidal. I would hide it well. You have to find something that makes you happy. I’m still searching for what makes me happy but I have found things that make me content in life. And right now thats better then nothing
Firstly, you are not a coward for not allowing yourself to bleed to death, in fact the reverse: you are brave to stop killing yourself each time you cut yourself, because it means you still have hope that you can feel better.
As Mari, has said, hospital is not a bad option if you are so very depressed and suicidal. While being in a hospital is never great, I was very grateful for the stay I had in hospital. The regular meals and no stress meant that it was easier for doctors to balance my medication (I am bipolar), I got to meet a couple of people who were in similar situations and we have become very good friends and there were always nurses and counsellors on duty to talk to whenever feelings got real bad.
If you can’t or don’t want to go to hospital, I would suggest finding a counsellor to talk to. Email me at drukdeur@live.co.za if you want to chat further.
i started being suesidel at the age of 5. i tride to hang myself with a hanger. last week my boyfriend a a yer and 6 months. dumped me and iv ben cutting my self every since. the other da on the bus a kid dard me to cut my self saying i woldent. i did. the kid stared thar looking at me as blood driped on the flore. he still wont look at me.
if you want to talk e-mail at jinxed.love@yahoo.com. maby for once some one will talk.
I agree with the above, when your life sucks this bad, a hospital is a great place to be. It’s not wonderful, but just the break from the everyday bs was really really helpful and broke me out of the rut I was in. Plus some new meds didn’t hurt either.
Cutting does not get rid of pain. It makes you feel worse. On top of your suicidal depression, you then have physical wounds, but more importantly you are creating more psychological wounds, such as feeling worse about yourself for not being strong enough to bleed to death.
To really stop the pain, get professional help now.
p.s when I was a suicidal teen me and a like minded friend of mine used to sit around and read the obituaries in the newspaper. It didn’t cure the depression, but it did make for some really interesting conversations .
I feel loads of pain too. 17 is not too late, ya you may feel annoyed when I say this but come on, you can get outta this without killing yourslef. Email me, aleshya.starry.girl@hotmail.co.jp I’m nice, people like talking to me (just cuase I’m bipolar so I have non depression episodes when I act like the good person in me) , and I will totally understand cause I’m in a very similar situation.
its highschool. whether u believ it or not everyone is the same. they’re all questioning themselves and are desperately/constantly tryin to fit in..
half those people are boners and deep down you know it too lol..
give it some more time, life is totally different after u graduate.
make sure u goto college tho and get an education. just bang it out right after highschool and get it done with.
u geta good job and u can go anywhere and do anything.. do what u life. fuck every1 else
and if all else fails u can become a heroin addict like me lol. u duno wat being sad is… trust me
I’m 17, too. I understand how you feel. No one likes to be ignored. I grow tired of wearing this mask to hide my depression and hatred for the world.
My best advice would be..Endure and become stronger. Or talk to us here at the site. We’re all people looking for help.
i know what u feel just remember that theres a lot of ppl out there that think the same way i cut to well i havnt in a wile but i want to go back to it cuz my life seam so much more easer and i guess it was like i could live but at the same time i wont tell u to keep doing it i know its dume and i am sure u know that to but dont kill ur self eather thats not the answer life will get better ones u get out of ur situation i am sure cuz i am still waitng to get out mine i know lame anyway i will stop hear
get a prostitute , and a condom!! or a girlfriend it you can .. i cant but i cant afford a prostitute either .. soo. .im screwed .. can you see the irony there.. that irony is infecting my life!!!!! it doesnt go away just always there like the number 23