I so wish I could rewind my life and go back to start over. I was driving hone from work today and I just had a constant thought running through my mind…I want to just keep driving, never to look back, just start my life over, somewhere no one knows me, knows my past…There’s parts of me I hate. When did I become the person who does half the things I do. I look at myself in the mirror and I get disgusted. I had so many dreams for my life, and who I am now, was not one of them. I don’t understand how someone can feel so alone when surrounded by people. On the outside I act like I am fine, and I’m never fine. I want to go back to the days where I had no worries. I know I promised so many people I wouldn’t harm myself again…but I don’t know what else to do. Thoughts of suicide just seem to be my best friend now.