So here’s my story. Since I was 23, I’ve had kidney failure. I was on dialysis for four years then my cousin gave me a kidney. During that time I met my wife, the love i thought I would never find. After six years of marriage our relationship started fizzling out a little. I found an old friend online one day and we started hangin out again. Then I brought him over to meed my wife a couple of times. During one of these times, we all got drunk and my wife and my friend apparently kissed. One thing led to another and she cheated on me with him. We decided to wait a few months to see if things were going to be alright again with us. But after a few months, my transplanted kidney failed. I got really sick, in the hospital for a month, lost my job and am now back on dialysis. What I’ve found out recently, is that my wife has been seeing my now ex-friend this whole time and lying to me about it. Worst, yesterday she left for Vegas with him for an entire week and lied to me about who she was going with. I just feel like this life is over for me. It would be so easy to quit…I don’t know why I haven’t done it sooner. Maybe I will tonight. I can’t stand this life anymore. I’m always sick, never can be healthy, and I’m losing what I thought was an angel. I don’t know what to do. I just wanna die…
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Sh*t happens. I think I know very well how are you feeling now. First thing, I would say, is to watch your health. I know a man who got kidney transplantation twice, I know it is not easy process etc.
The other issue is your realitonship with your wife – even if it is hard try to talk to her and if possible you both should see good counsellor, therapist – it can really help. It will take time.
Do not give up! It is too soon to do, you can still do it anytime later…
Wish you a Power and patience with your hard life process.
Hug, Hugo
Your situation in life is undeniably sucky. When I have a tooth or back ache, I feel like it’s the end of the world. So, just know the fact that you have made it this far in life with such a big health issue, speaks volumes about your strength. You are superman. Or woman! As for those in your life who have let you down, I’d say get rid of ’em. Just know they don’t have your strength or depth of character and will only drain you of your amazing strength. I wish you some peace and happiness for which you so much deserve for all the pain you are and have gone through. My thoughts are with you.
Sometimes things happen for a reason, even if the reason doesn’t make sense at the time, it’s best to wait. Every time it gets so bad you don’t think you can take it any more, make the decision to wait again. I think you should talk to your wife and tell her that you aren’t keeping her if she doesn’t want to stay. You don’t want someone to stay with you who doesn’t really want to be there, right? And the lying isn’t helping either of you. There are lots of people who care – some you’ve met and some you haven’t yet met. If there’s any way you can afford it and your health will allow, a dog would be a great friend to have right now, and there are so may in shelters who need a home. It would be doing both of you a favor, and you’d be amazed how a dog can really fill your heart and give you a purpose to get through each day. Jesus loves you and you are here for a reason! Love and hugs!
in my life i had ups and downs, times when i thought that i wasnt going to be alive the next day. i never married but ive had plenty of bad relationships and ive found that when someone realy cares for you, they wouldnt mind missing out on work to see how you are holding up. friends just laugh behind your back and do things they think are right around you but a true person would be real and actualy care about the colors you like to wear, what makes you happy and what ticks you off, and they also care about how you feel about them. some may go out of their way to please you. the point im trying to make is we may have think we found the perfect person when in reality no ones perfect, dont waste your time and your heart on people who beleive that they are perfect rather than trying to be. you would know when you find that somebody, hell they might just be standing beside you are they might be the person taking you to the hospital time after time. my kidneys were bad too at one point after i had decided to take a bottle of aspirin. the doctors said my kidneys are no good but i knew that i was givin a second chance at life when i woke up lying on my appartment floor looking around. i cant believe that im still here sometimes but i dont regret what i did because i dont have time feeling sorry for myself when i could be spending that time to help someone in my situation. i believe that of you stay strong and know that your more precious than gold and jewels youll come out of this. meet someone of your dreams and even get another job. i was poor and i wish you could see me now. im living proof that what the doctor says is just words, only you are the difference. remember friend change is only a descision away. dont live life in pain like i did, take everything as a lesson learned. ive learned my lesson and im now drug free and loving every step of it. though i havnt found anybody to love i know that one day i will soon. take care buddy and stay strong please not just for me or the readers but for the life thats waiting ahead of you. if you feel like talking email me at virgak47@yahoo.com and i would take time out of my schedule for a friend.
hear me out your situation seems to be at the worste so i see…. i been there…. i’ve had those crazy heart breaking thoughts go through my mind before…. trust me its not worth takin your life over someone else and being sick………. your sickness you cant help you have to face that its the plan god has out for you…. you may not go to church or have faith but theres still a god out there and you can pray for a sign of hope on what to do….. now your wife i know you love her but ima be straight up and tell you shes a *****…. leave her.. all the stress and heart break shes doin to you isnt makin you any better with your sickness…….. thats all i have to say pretty much just please dont take your own life.
Hear me out. Im going to tell you something that took me years to understand, you see, I lived through the cheating wife, my angel, and although its been years since we parted I can say I still cherish her in my own way. But I found something that really dazzled me, again its taken years, she wasnt the only one for me, life goes on and strangely enough wounds heal. And this part you may not appreciate yet but living and being happy is the best revenge even if thats not what you want right now, they win if you die. I hope everyhting improves for you, I know you amy not see it right now but remember there are many others out there for you, and life is a wonderful ride with ups and downs just hang in there, things always change.