I want to kill myself. Simple as. I hate myself so much and I know, in order to improve the lives of those around me I must die. There’s some fancy new bridge opening soon near my home. I’m planning on making the opening ceremony something to remember. Lol.
People always say there’s something out there to live for. But I’ve hung around enough times before. I tipped away a lethal conconction full of pills, bleach and other household cleaning products once to give myself another chance. Then I tried to jump out of a window, only I got stuck because I’m so fat. But this time I am going to do it. Lol.
What point is there in living? I am only living so I can procreate then die. But then the offspring would only live for the same reason. But its not living really, only existing. There is no real reason to live. None at all. Fact.
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do you know God, fredknowman?
without Him – there is no point in living. life is complete a waste. there is no special someone out there for anyone. there is no such thing as a happy ending. there is no such thing as peace. there is no love.
God is love fredknowman, you’ll live in the world so much like hell, and then die and be in a hell without God if you don’t learn of Him. i understand why you want to kill yourself, why you just want to die, and why you feel that you only exist to procreate. you want to die because life without God in the center leads to hell, sometimes that hell starts in life, sometimes it doesn’t start until after death, but in your case, and in mine, it has started in life. killing yourself would only maximize the problem. i have no way to prove it to you, only that “weeping and gnashing of teeth,” which are Jesus’ words, describe hell. haven’t you ever cried your eyes out while clenching your fist? anguish mixed with helplessness is hell. the anguish you already know. the helplessness you may think you know. but there is no such thing as helplessness in a world created by God. God is the only true help there is. drugs won’t help, they just make you feel better, and feelings that don’t come from the inside never last. killing yourself will only put yourself in a real hell. what is hell? can you imagine an infinity? hell is an infinity, unimaginable, but anyone can imagine life at its worst. anyone can go through it.
you seem like you don’t believe in God already. if you don’t, and after reading this you still don’t want to try to believe in Him, please talk to me about it. actually, talk to me no matter what you believe. i want to help you. please let me help you. please have faith in God–the only escape from Hell.
my AIM is K3TK3TK3T and my email address is daniellopez2316@ymail.com
please do not hesitate to contact me in some way. you need help, everyone needs help, everyone needs God. only God can help. God is Love.
thank you for reading.
I feel you. Not in the way that people say just to give you that “connective” feeling, but really I do. The creation, purpose, and end of life is depressing. All of it, but we don’t stop existing or feeling until we’re dead. I found out the secret, which doesn’t seem nearly as glamorous as it sounds, but its still something.
“Its not about when or how you’ll die. Not even about death itself, but what you feel and remember right now. To enjoy it while you’re still alive. What you’re willing to do, to die, try doing, to live. Bungee jumping, cattle roping, climb Mount Everest. Live for your waking, until your burial.”
i HATE my life it is soooooooooooo horrible i had a brother i lived with for 12 years and hes gone i really miss him but i dont tell anyone i used to cut my self but i got help and stoped but i still feel depressed. Somedats i feel like dying.BUt it is selfish all ill be thinkin about is myself. I just hate it. But hopefully god will find a way to get me back on track i hope i live a greate life at school i dont express my feelings i bottle them up and i eventually explode. but i have a greate friend to help me i pretend i am happy when im really not. i had a pretty rough child hood my mom left when i was 2 and my dad gave my brother and i to family to family. Finally he said to my moms mom that if she didnt take us we will go to foster care. Luckly she took us She and my brother had some problems btu eventually they solved them. but he doesnt know how much i love him and he left me i miss him soo much and i always think of him.I dont think he knew how much i love him and hen dies before i tell him i will be depressed for the rest of my life and be mad at myself i dont know how many people love me buts it just not enough. Gods love is more than enough but i dont stop and think about it also if you feel like killing yourself PLEASE PLEASE dont god loves you no matter what you did in life make adiferance change you life make good choices and remember God LOVES you alot
my life is down the drain.ive tried to kill myself b4 but with a knife.then when i know that im gonna do it 4 sure i always stop and think about the people who love me and hate me and thats its just life .your not gona be the barbie doll in the middle if a crowd espacially when your going nuts.im emo and so is my friend shes all i have right now to count on if she dies then so do i if she commits suicide to herself then we will both be in the same grave.and i always say that when your born and have a life you dont really have a reason to live.but you have your moments with the the people you love back.and the will miss you. when i lived in conneticut i found a gun in my grandpas couch but he said that he wuz using it 4 safety.so at night i stood on my grandpas boat and i went to the corner and pointed it to my ear.but i couldnt do it .i tried to find my center peice but all i had wuz my memories.i saw my grandpa standingthere crying.and so he made me cry so then i just took the gun and put it in his hand and gave him a hug.so then he grabbed my hand and we both jumped out into the water and stared at eachother while we were in there and then started laughing. and my grandpa i love him so much .if anyone in my family dies i go along with them.i ask god what should i do.but i know that hes trying to tell me something.and one day i promise i will find out.i get scared alot.and i promise the following is true.
1-when this girl named celines wuz gona fite me she wuz getting on my nerves so the next day i brung a knife 2 skul.and so on.but i culdnt do it.
2-i am a totall emo i have 11 cuts in my arms .and sometimes i just want to dig the glass into my arm.
3-i have every mood exept 4 being bisexual.
i have a counciler come to my home and she dont do shyt.
ALL I HAVE RIGHT NOW IS DESIREE I LOVE HER SO MUCH AS A SISTER IF I WOULDNT FIND ANYONE LIKE HER I WULDNT BE POSTING THIS COMENT RITE NOW I LOVE HER MORE THAN MY OWN COUSINSAND SONME OF MY FAMILY.I WOULD BE SO AFRAID 2 LOOSE HER.MY MO SAYS FRENDS CUM ND GO BUT THATS NOT TRUE I WILL ALWAYS BE BY HER SIDE.WE CUT OUSELFS 2GEDA MOST OF THE TYM BUT SHES A REALLY CRAZY AND OUTGOING .SHE ROCKS ROCKS.other comments do not help at all.by the way i am a 12 going on 13 yr old girl and already thinks of death but i dont wanna die its painfull and depressing.i feel like it but i sware it will neva happen.i know that god will lead me the right way
I know what you mean. What’s the point? Eventually, everyone will forget me. Eventually, we’ll fuck up our world so much that all of us will cease to exist. Totally no point. I sometimes argue with myself about that. I think this argument won:
Why not enjoy this pitiful existence while I can? Why not play video games till I drop, eat cheese flavored ice cream till I die from heart problems and obesity, watch awesome movies till my eyes pop out and have sex till my tools are all worn out.
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JAZLYN,i LOVE you and i neva want 2 loose you your my best friend i tell you every thing and wen sometimez you leave me for selena you get me sssssssssssssssssssoooooooooooooooooooooooooooo mad i need you from the good timez and the bad. next year wen we mite go our seperate wayz i will try 2 b close as possible 2 u. BUt if we dont go our seperate wayz i will still b close 2 u. I alwayz think of you even wen im wit you I LOVE YOU JAZLYN i will alwayz mis and luv u.If i eva die i want to give you my three cross necklace or the one that says Desiree wit my birthstone.i hope u know how much you mean to me i really are about you.And s i said you neva noe wen you you are gonna die.i have hard timez in my life bt you dont noe all of them
Here are some things:
1 mymom left me
2i love my bro nd he left
hey desiree,your sitting next 2 me rite now and i now dat your luking of wat im tryna rite 2 u.but all i have to say is that i knew all your problems .cuz your my best friend forever and it will stay that way i promise.i love you as a sister so much.and if i loose you i sware idk whats gonna happen,but you know what i mean.im glad you dont cut yourself no more.and neithe do i.your the best.ill see you everyday.dont miss school.cuz i would be thinking about your craziness.it could be 1min and ill be thinking about your weirdness and craziness.i love you.so much.see you.and i hope we will be in the sam school next year.always remember me. a.k.a.-neva forgotten.i hope that god gives a right path.
I ALSO HAVE A CUZIN THAT I LOVE DEEPLY.HER NAME IS KASY.and i would also be so afraid to loose her also.she gives me the best advice.sometimes she can be alittle hiper and mostly weird.but i love her alot.and she understands what i am going through most of the tym because her and desiree and me are all going threw the same problem.