Crazy.

From the little information you gave, I can only guess that you are mad.
It’s just neurons not firing right in your head.
It’s simple to be treated by a chinese doctor.
But if treated by yourself without medication, in time, you will kill yourself, that is for certain.
Sometimes, a pancreas malfunction can cause madness, diabetes, or imprenancy.
The western doctors are ignorant about that, because the x-ray or any scans or biopsy prove nothing of that.
But the pulse reading on your wrist by a chinese doctor can tell.

I had an aunt (my mother’s brother’s wife) who suffered all her life with madness.
When young, she had a love affair that broke her heart that caused her like this.
She jumped when at the age around 60’s.
She was a disbeliever in chinese medicine.
My mom was also a disbeliever. She hated the bitterness of the herbs.
Of course, most of the ignorant chinese doctors in Hong Kong played a damaged part.
But in China, the doctors capability’s requirement is strict.

Even after you are cured, don’t think that you are immnuned.
Many factors can involve. Such as genes, lack of nutrition in food, emotions problems, narcotics, and the actual scars in your body parts or brains not dissolved yet. Then to balance your body with chinese herbs again.

But if mysterious forces involved, the chinese doctors usually ignore and can’t tell.
But I can. Just by reading your pulse on your wrist.
It would be like the pulse at stroke. And your left wrist can emit static electricity while touched, even on a summer day.
Some cases can turn the needle on a compass.

I meant finding a new shrink and tell him that you are ‘antisocial personality disorder’.
You can say that was termed by your mother’s friend who is a psychologist.
And say that was a free session.
But say you hate relating further secrets to your parents’ friend.
See how the new shrink will treat you.
I think you would then find fun in it.