Do you believe that some people aren’t put on this earth to get what they want/need? Because, lately, I believe that. I believe that certain people are put onto this earth as a warning to others, to never really get what they want and force themselves to accept what they’re given or die trying.
Example: I’m sure a lot of you know about me and my ex. I rant about it nearly everyday. What I’m sure you didn’t know what that she was depressed, too, before she met me (I’m not being egotistical, it’s the truth). She cut herself, was very closed off to everyone, etc. We met and I did my best to help her through every tiny little thing she wanted/needed hlp with. I was always there for her.
Well, after 4 years of happily doing that, she left me for someone else who knew nothing of her past. Not like I do.
Now I’m depressed. I’m going through crap and there’s nobody there to love me, to help and care and hold me.
Because I did my job, you know? That was my purpose: helping her. Maybe I have a few more similar “missions” to “accomplish” before I’m actually done but…why would I wanna do that?
I dont know, I’m just ranting now…does anyone else feel similar?
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Glad to hear that you’re ranting. I would like to think that it helps whenever someone talks about their problems instead of holding it all in.
Sorry to hear your girl left you. I’ve never even had one, so I envy you.
Personally, I don’t believe in “life purpose”. I don’t want to even believe there is a God/Higher Power.
Anyway, one of the problems I have with the “life purpose” theory is that it gives people an out: Your mission is over, so you can now die. I don’t think anyone deserves to get off that easy.
As for the depression, crap, and lonliness, I’m right beside you, bro.
Hope you get a kick out of this zing. My apologies if you don’t.
i don’t even have to tell you that you cannot find a purpose in life – you’ve already figured it out. it is very logical to understand that. but the purpose that is in life can find you, if you are looking for it. live for God – that’s the only purpose. please read my post here: http://suicideproject.org/?p=3837
thank you
i feel almost the same ive been helping others for as long as i can remember but who is supposed to help me im 15 and depressed whats new ive been depressed for 5 yrs and the only person that helped me is in prison and wont write or talk to me
you will find someone that will be able to comfort your wounds the way you comforted her, she showed you disrespect and sometimes you have to show her some back by forgetting about her, there are plenty of girls out there that help guys like you get back on your track or even start afresh with themselves, the truth is girls dont like to hear about a guys past so its best to avoid it and forget and start afresh you may feel like a new person. forget, live, and move on to your next mission my son. You should not really be thinking about your purpose but just get on with your life, we may not know or stumble upon our purpose for many many years, the only way we will find out if these paths we followed are true is when we die.
Also when people realise that you are helping other people round you, they may think that you are happy, and sometimes to show real friends from the fake ones is seeing who will comfort you when you are upset, they are the ones who are for you. sometimes not only your partner can comfort you but your friends. (the same message can go out to angie kay – forget your prison friend, because to be honest you may never see him or her again, you should try and meet new people who will treat you the same as your prison friend did, and these friends may be your friends for life as you will have better communication with them. I’ve always noticed the happiest people in life are the ones with the most friends/people who are willing to comfort them.
I understand you. I am right there with you. Everybody thinks of me as the nice girl, loyal and available. And I am so tired. Tired to be nice. I do not want to help anymore. Yesterday I felt like the entire world was festered with mean people and the only way to get ahead was to be like one of them. Unfortunately, I cannot do it. But now that I gave what was expected of me to those who needed me, I have been abandoned, because I pulled back and decided that I will no longer listen to their complaints. My pain is increasing daily, becoming agonizing, I am afraid it will lead me once again on the path of hopelessness and darkness.
Feel similar? It’s like reading my own thoughts.
I feel like I am a warning to others..Like I’m destined to fail at everything, to disappoint everyone who I cross paths with.
I had the same situation with a guy, and I totally sympathize. I was always there but somehow it just wasn’t enough.
Just reading this made me feel heaps better..
It’s a little cold hearted to wish these feelings upon someone, but to know someone else in in the same boat helps.
Thank you.
Maybe you could email me?
If you wanted to talk..
nicole_tha_great@hotmail.com
i am on the same wavelength as all of you. tonight, i tried to take an overdoes- nothing really happend wrong pills i think and threw them up. i dont know what to do because i really want to die but 1% of me doesent. im also scared of what happens next when u die.
im 18yrs old, and suposed to be having a gap year this year. my whole enire family hates me and wishes id never been born. even one sister who used to be my best friend untill recently said “your a mistake of a child who should have never been inflicted on anyone” my mum agrees and has washed her hands of me.
whats reeeeeaally funy is that last week my mum locked me out of the house, threw me out- to which i texted her and my sister fine dont expect me to see me alive again (something like that) but they did nothing, like they wanted me to do something.
i have such a shit relationship with everyone in my life and the truth is- no one actually cares if i die, ive really noticed in these past weeks.
what now? and ive feel like ive done everything there is to do. i feel like theres nothing left for me. i havent even had a boyfriend for 3 years.
Hey brother just be happy that you served her well karma will bless you I guess and hope that she is really happy and stable in that new relationship .
I often wish my wife would find someone who really served her and made her happy because I feel I have failed in that way .
Remember love really is putting the other person first I often fall short in that regard so if she found someone who could make her smile and walk that extra mile to make her happy I would have to let my ego subside and wish them very well .
Charles