October 25th, 2009by etoilenoir

Apathy, depression, rage, insanity, the split of your personality, the controll you know you lost long ago, the hours of sleep lost, opression, introversion. How can something be all of this, possess all of these emotions, without physically being able to be indentified as any of them. The darkness that infects people can never really be diagnosed, cured, or found. If it lives in you, you’re the only one that knows that it’s there. And you’ll know. Every person on this website thinks that they have it garunteed. About 3% of them do most likely. How many people can honestly say, that they’re being driven to the point where the only thing left to do to get rid of this darkness is blow your own fucking brains out, hoping it kills it, stop its heartbeat with pills (as if this thing has such an organ), choke it to death, all resulting in the death of the person hosting it. That wont kill it. You’re looking for some form of relief. Relief is an emotion, something that dies right with you when you make that choice. The last thing you will feel, see, or be at all physically aware of, is the fact that you haven’t defeated this thing. It’ll move on to someone else and all thats left of you is apathy. You as a dead being have physically become apathy. Apathy isn’t a feeling, its the lack of. It is the dead. If you “feel” it inside of you, chances are a part of you is dead.

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