why doesn’t anyone understand that I can’t just keep living in this life where i dont care or feel anything? I’m fucking numb. he abused me from ages 4 to 8 sexually. and i cant get over that. it’s not that fucking easy. i hate him.
i want to kill him.
i cant tho because i’m too fucking afraid to see him or go anywhere near him/.
that fucking ass whole stole my childhood and dragged my life along with it.
i hope that mother fucker rots in hell.
i just wish i could forget everything that’s happened and never look back. but that isn’t going to happen so what’s the point anymore.
Their is none!
don’t even try to tell me you understand.
u dont understand and neither does ne one else.
i’m sick of talking about it.
i’m sick of doctors.
i’m sick of medications.
i’m sick of hospitals.
i’m sick of life.
i’m sick of not being happy.
i’m sick of the pain i feel inside.
i’m sick of trying.
i’m sick of everything and everyone.
my friends and family think i am so beautiful… but i just dont see what they see. they are all lying for all i know. I am 19 years young and i feel like i’ve lived a lifetime of terror and sadness.
oh my fucking god… just take me now!