why doesn’t anyone understand that I can’t just keep living in this life where i dont care or feel anything? I’m fucking numb. he abused me from ages 4 to 8 sexually. and i cant get over that. it’s not that fucking easy. i hate him.
i want to kill him.
i cant tho because i’m too fucking afraid to see him or go anywhere near him/.
that fucking ass whole stole my childhood and dragged my life along with it.
i hope that mother fucker rots in hell.
i just wish i could forget everything that’s happened and never look back. but that isn’t going to happen so what’s the point anymore.
Their is none!
don’t even try to tell me you understand.
u dont understand and neither does ne one else.
i’m sick of talking about it.
i’m sick of doctors.
i’m sick of medications.
i’m sick of hospitals.
i’m sick of life.
i’m sick of not being happy.
i’m sick of the pain i feel inside.
i’m sick of trying.
i’m sick of everything and everyone.
my friends and family think i am so beautiful… but i just dont see what they see. they are all lying for all i know. I am 19 years young and i feel like i’ve lived a lifetime of terror and sadness.
oh my fucking god… just take me now!
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Hey, i’m really sorry for what happened with you. I tried to put myself in ur place and i can feel the pain and I honestly can understand how you feel. Just try to forget what happened(i kno its hard 4 u) n look the good things in life.
If you want we can talk(only if u want)
jabed92@yahoo.com
alwayslively@live.com
Im certainly not the one to offer advice on pain and rage, considering I feed off of those emotions myself, but I can say one thing for certainty, there is a special place in hell for people like him. I know it does absolutely nothing to help, but tis true. I wish I could spend 10 minutes in a locked room with people who touch children, i really do