I’m so lost in my mind i don’t know what to do any more dude, my thought’s are literally eating me alive. I just got out of the Pych ward at the hospital after being in there for 72 hour’s, I just dont really feel like it helped me much at all. I wish i could feel the way i did when i was on my anti-depressent’s all the time, but its not realistic i cant take drugs for the rest of my life, so i need to just deal with it i guess, but this is the most discusting feeling ever and i dont know how im going to be able to live feeling like this everyday for the rest of my life. When i get like this, i push everyone i care about out of my life because i dont want them to have to deal with me, but then i feel more liek shit cause i have no one. The one thing i love most tattooing i cant even stay consintrated doing that anymore, i just dont care about anything..but i cant seem to find the guts to end it..im a fucking loser.
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You need to stop in your tracks and take a breather……we are only here but once……….
Honey I’ve spent over 3 months in a psych ward, and yes, sometimes you have to stay on anti-depressant meds for the rest of your life… it’s a trade off really. But yeah, I hate them too… though I don’t plan to hang around that much longer anyway, so it doesn’t really matter anymore. I hope that helped! >.<
Honey I’ve spent over 3 months in a psych ward, and yes, sometimes you have to stay on anti-depressant meds for the rest of your life… it’s a trade off really. But yeah, I hate them too… though I don’t plan to hang around that much longer anyway, so it doesn’t really matter anymore. I hope that helped!
You arent a loser, this is a really hard time for you. I would like to talk more with you, but its your choice if you really want to. I check them everyday so dont hesitate. (silly.snowball@yahoo.com)
I really think you should source other help, you can talk to your Doctor and there are support networks which can help with the way you are feeling. I think the response you have had from Shelly is the least helpful. However bad we feel, if we are to offer advice we must do this positively. There are support groups which are non judgemental or profit motivated and they possibly may be the best route for you to take. Your life is very precious, and you will have people around you who care very deeply. Turn to them and let them know how you feel. Suicide is not the answer, its just a way out and one which has no solution.
Hi Kari, 🙂
“I’m so lost in my mind i don’t know what to do any more dude, my thought’s are literally eating me alive.”
—-MAN! Do I know exactly how you feel; oddly, it makes me smile to know that I can, once again, relate to someone, and maybe even be able to help them (if they want it). I remember staying woke for 3 days straight with my mind going out of control.
“I just got out of the Pych ward at the hospital after being in there for 72 hour’s, I just dont really feel like it helped me much at all. ”
—- Yeah, been there too. Had me in there for overdosing. I was there for about 2 weeks. Did it help? No, because no one can ever help someone until they are willing to help themselves. I could have spent 2 years in there, but until I make the decision that I want to live, and I want to better myself, none of the medicine, nor “treatment” is going to work.
(Haven’t been back 😉
“I wish i could feel the way i did when i was on my anti-depressent’s all the time, but its not realistic i cant take drugs for the rest of my life, so i need to just deal with it i guess”
—-I am not a firm believer on medicine either, however, I do believe in chemical imbalances and if you NEED it than you NEED it; Taking medicine is better than being 6 ft in the ground/jail/or the psych ward.
“but this is the most discusting feeling ever and i dont know how im going to be able to live feeling like this everyday for the rest of my life.”
—–Yeah, I know what you mean. Sometimes when you look back and you think about all those nights you spent feeling like you were about to loose your mind, when no one understood why you were the way you are and you didn’t understand much either, or no one seemed to care; you tend to imagine the future the same way, but trust- the future IS what YOU make it. The past does not determine your future.
“When i get like this, i push everyone i care about out of my life because i dont want them to have to deal with me, but then i feel more liek shit cause i have no one.”
—–OMGOODNESS!! This is so what I used to do… Then that ruined a lot of my relationships, but now it helps me with my relationships, because I have such a high tolerance for my other friend’s behavior because I know what it feels like…
” The one thing i love most tattooing i cant even stay consintrated doing that anymore, i just dont care about anything..but i cant seem to find the guts to end it..im a fucking loser.”
—-Loser? Not even, you are not a loser, you just have no motivation! You don’t want to live, but you are afraid to die. You don’t want to die, and where is the losing in living? NOTHING. But you lose EVERYTHING when you die.
Please, talk to me, we have a lot in common ;).
Email: Stolenname123@yahoo.com
I know some of what you are going thru Kari,
I recall when my wife left me, and I was afraid to drive alone, because I thought I might run int a bridge abuttment and NOT succeed in killing myself.
I felt safe with other people because I might have wanted to die, but I didnn’t want to kill anyone else.
I finally figured out that I did not deserve to live, bu I was alive, so I might as well learn to enjoy what I had.
NOW! The secret to enjoying life is to just let everyone around you be just as screwed-up and crazy as they insist on being.
When you do that, then nothing they do bothers you.
ALSO since I don’t deserve anything good, whatever comes my way is a free gift, and I can enjoy it without feeling guilty. If GOD wants me to have it, who am I to say otherwise.
I know you don’t like your feelings, but just accepting them helps to get past them.
Know that you are LOVED,
JohnGee
Forgot to leave my E-Mail john110@breakthru.com