I’ve been feeling so bad for a while now likeÂ just awful… and this happens when school starts. I just get really deppresed and I get really bad grades because I don’t want to do my homwork becasue I just can’t I mentally and physically can’t. I hate it, because that’s not who I am. I want to go to school and get a good education without having all this fucking stress. I mean I do have deppresion, but my counsler says my deppresion isn’t big enough to take medication. I try to be happy and I just can’t. Like my mind has wiped Happy out of my emotions. I think that I have over come cutting myself, but whenever I am sure I stoped…. Somthing just pushes me to cut. I mean I’ve started cutting less and lesser but It seems that whenever I do cut I cut deeper and deeper. I just can’t handle this pain anymore…. I seriously need one person to help me becasue I’m sooo afraid that if I don’t get help it’ll be the end. And I don’t want to go out like that. I mean I just wish that all the bulleying would stop, and all the stupid Family Issues would like just end. I hate being alone in a room becasue that means that I think and when I think I think about my problems and life…. and all the stpid bullshit…….Ugh….. I just want to be numb let my brain shut down for a while……Sleep…is what I think of most….Â I’m seriously asking for advice because like the title Says I don’t know what to do anymore…..