Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â WellÂ I am just waiting for the effects of the Vicodin and alcohol kick in. I have overdosed so many times andÂ I have slit my wrists just as many. Yes at first it was a cry for help but nowÂ I really want to die. Everything in my life is falling apart. I was pregnant and forced to get an abortion by my parents. I have regreted that for awhile. I am living with my grandparents and they keep taking advantage of me. I also have been disowned by my mother, she hates me so much. I am also dealing with an eating disorder andÂ I can’t be happy ifÂ I am fat andÂ I don’t have body dismorphic disorderÂ I have been told by my doctor that I am over-weight and every person in my family is not even slightly supportive in any way. I hopeÂ I dieÂ I am so tiredÂ of constantly being disappointed by everyoneÂ I know. I LOVE EVERYONE MORE THAN I CAN EVER LOVE MYSELF!!!! I wish people would see that. T hey say i am selfish but allÂ I ever do is give, give, give. I wish that my family and friends could understand thatÂ I am a burden and they will do much better ifÂ I was dead.Â I am doing this so that wayÂ everyonesÂ lives will be so much better. I am nothing.Â I will never amount to anything andÂ I can’t help much more.Â I am running low on my ability to help others.