im 51 cant type for shit. im suffering from major deppresoin&social anxiety for many years now. ihate everything & everybody. many peaple love me, so it makes it hard to do it. im thinking about death & suicide all my waking hours. my meds. dont do shit, &imon alot of em. i recently had a major operation, liver transplant. iv been an alcoholic, drug abuser sinse 12 y.o. but iv been sober for ten years. sobriety sucks major ass. thats the time i had all my fun. well the funs over, now i have to deal with this fucking hell. if i had any balls id blow my brains out. out.