i hate living!!!Â why is so hard for everyone to understand that i dont want to be alive……. nothing in m life has ever gone the right way….. im in a relationship at the moment but iÂ cant even hold that together i even have a new baby girl but im too useless to be a mother for her.
why is it so hard for people to understand people like us….. all we ant is to be happy but you cantÂ be happy because of all the shit things we’ve been through…. i’ve been raped at least four times and it sucks because one guy was my mums boyfriends brother and my own mother didnt believe me she just sent me to a foster home…..
i’ve been burnt and tortured and life is just horrible i commited suicide when i was 15 but then i was rushed to hospital i didnt die i just went into a blackout then them fucked up doctors saved me….. some would say its a meaning that your not supposed to die….. butin my mind thats just fucked up..
i hae scars….. on the inside out and i dont want to keep living with them…. i may only be 18 but one day i will die and there will be nooneÂ there to save me…. people say they love you but seeing is believing.
this is my story and i dont give 2 fucks if you like the fucking thing or not i just needed to express my feelings somehow because noone will listen to me anymore and imÂ getting so fucking sick and tired of people judging the way i am so fuck the world and everyone in it……