I haven’t dated anyone in 3 years, and the first boyfriend I’ve had is breaking up with me
My career is going nowhere
Everyday I constantly feel like everyone is out to get me, everyone is so mean
I don’t know what the point is
I’m asking my family for money every month, which is just weighing on my conscience
I’m so sad all the time
I moved to New York to pursue my dreams of becoming an actress/writer. I’ve made some progress, but every day it’s just a battle to keep going. Every day I ask why am I here? Why did I leave my family and friends and everyone who loved me to live in this disgusting place where I’m not getting anywhere with my life?
What’s the point? And if I’m not happy now that I’m pursuing my dreams, when am I going to be? Should I just move home and get a corporate job again like I used to have? But I was miserable there, too.
I just don’t know what to do.
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Stating the obvious here, but you miss your family. You hate where you are. You chose a REALLY hard dream and don’t have the support system to make it.
The acting life may seem glamorous but it really sucks and it’s hard. It takes a tough person to make it. If it’s not making you happy, maybe it’s not really what you need.
hang in there and I hope things get better for you.
i know how hard it is pursuing one’s dream but i also knwo the pleasure it brings maybe i misread you but if it’s not making you happy in the mean time look for a job in new york find some people who’ll make you feel at home and continue maybe it’s just the lack of support that’s making you down. Or i don’t know take a break go home next to your loved ones and go back revigorated as ever but if then it doesn’t make you happy then maybe it’s a dream but just not your dream. whatever i’m sure you’ll make it you need some will power which i’m sure you’ll find. don’t let go you’re living proof that realizing one’s dreams is hard but possible. Don’t give up.
“I just don’t know what to do”
I say that all the time. I only hope that when I see a new psychiatrist next week that she will load me up with meds that will help me forget this pain.
I wish I had the answer. I wish I could tell you a simple thing to do to make it all better, but if it were that easy I would have done it myself.
Talk to someone, go to the hospital? Try new medication. ECT?