even worse

March 26th, 2010by minnie

Things are just gettn worse for me. I posted up before and thought maybe I can over come all this pain and hurt, but I realized that it won’t let up and will continue to get worse. No matter what I do or try to do things will always turn towards me in a bad way. I get blamed for things before I even do it or even if that wasn’t my intention I still get put as being the one at fault. Sometimes I just agree to it just so I don’t cuz a fight but it still does. Can’t voice my opinion as my thoughts are not good enough to be heard.I tried opening up and being honest with these feelings of depair but all I get is stop the yap yap already and do something about it.I think it is better of if I’m dead people will carry on like nothing happened. They only shitty thing is how do I leave my kids? I can’t n don’t want to. It hurts already knowing that if I give up my life that I will be hurtn them more than anyone.so that’s why I haven’t and won’t do it. So what does that leave me? Hurt myself bad and hope ppl will notice? But I really want to die, I don’t know what to do

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