I don’t want to live nomore. No matter what I do thinks always seem to go wrong. I can’t function right. I think of ways to kill myself every single minute. Think how much better life would be with out me in it. My family hates me , no friends at all, and a guy who refuses to love me. I do have 3 beautiful kids which must be the only good thing I have. I try to focus on them and keep them ahead this the only reason why I am breathing today. I try seeking help but no matter what it turns out to be the same at the end. I already made myself believe I will never have a happyly ever after ending, nvr be married. I have done so much for this guy to show him how much I care for him and still nothing. I know what happened to us was my fault in the first place but I have been tryn so hard to help things get better, but now I’m tired. Tired of living, tired of rejection tired of wanting more in life and having it fall in pieces. I hate me and I can’t stand being me much longer. I have to find all the energy I have to end this miserable life. I just have to.