Everyday they kill me more and more.
The kids, at school, its like they have nothing better to do than call me names. and push me around. ive done nothing wrong, i haven’t done anything to hurt them.
my friends they see my getting harassed (i guess we could call it), they do nothing about it.
do they care?
on friday i was walking in the hall with my friend Katy, just minding m own business and a group of boys pushed me.
they laughed and i turned around and asked who had done it,
they snickered and laughed. they do that- enjoy my anger.
they throw things at me. they call me names.
sometimes
i eat lunch in the bathroom and cry to myself.
and when i go home
i stuff 12 or more pills down my throat,
thinking today is the day
the last day u will see me.
can u help me?
help me stop trying to kill myself?
and stop them
CAN U HELP ME?
13 comments
Hi there,
I know how tough school can be – I’m currently in eleventh grade.
See, what you have to understand is there are certain people in every school who think they’re “tough”. They believe it’s fun to put others through misery even if they haven’t done a single thing to deserve it. Usually the people they target are the sensible ones who have different ambitions and a different outlook on life.
After years of witnessing this stuff occurring to others, my advice is just to ignore them. I know that is extremely hard, but the more you show them your pain through anger, the more they will do it. Once you show them that it doesn’t bother you (don’t react to it), they will most likely start to realise that they’re “wasting time” and back off.
Please don’t let them drag you down any further.
You can email me if you would like anymore help at: lindsaybgilbert@msn.com
How do you get through the pain when you have nobody to turn to? You have to realize that the world is not all good, that the people are not all good. That no matter what you do or how much you try, the world will never change unless people change. It took me a very long time to finally come through with this epiphany, but you know what the most important thing I’ve learned thus far? It’s that no matter what happens, life goes on, and please take my word, life gets better. Not immediately, but eventually. In this case, you are the better person, you’re the one who’s going to change the world one person at a time because you know exactly how it feels to be tormented.
We’re all in this world for a reason, make good with it, not evil.
Please don’t hesitate to further contact me!
Bon*
hey, im 15, i understand what you are going through. i am so really sorry to hear that. it irritates me to hear what stupid ignorant kids do to you, kids have bullied me to in skool, have you talked to your parents abt this? pls do if you havent… tell them to switch you from schools, if they care about your life. i know how it feels, but please dont let them do what they did to me… ruin my confidence and self-esteem… if that doesnt help.. go to a counsoler/ principal, a caring teacher and let this stop, dont be afraid to speak. please dont let this ignorant kids kill you, they are not worth your pain. i know this is hard, but please know that i care for your life, we all do. dont hide your pain and situations, that wont help you. (: ill be back on tomorrow. please stop trying to take your life away bc u r someone who deserves every happiness in life and i do care for you.
Yes, do as “searching for hope” answered. Do just that. Do not argue the point. What you are being done is very common and very evil. As a young girl you cannot protect yourself from that. Believe me, I wish I were in that school and I had those boys in front of me now. It would be the last thing they would ever do to you.
First your parents. If they are of no help. Get the principal. If for whatever the reason you cannot get yourself into it, email me at: spain2004 at yandex.ru I will do it for you, I will talk to the counselor myself. You can be sure they will listen to me.
Let us know how you are doing.
warm greetings
Alvaro
I’m 20 years old and all throughout High-School kids tortured me. Because of a medical condition I have, I was over-weight and my hair was thin. On top of that my brother who had graduated the year before I became a freshman was hated all around. I got tortured for what kids thought was my own flaws and for his as well. But you aren’t alone. Kids can be cruel and relentless. I want you to hang in there though. Just like everyone else here I care if you live or die. If you want to talk you can email me as well at fallenunit at hotmail.com
I don’t mind if I have to talk to you every day after school for the rest of your life. I’m here if you need someone to lean on.
HAVE NO FEAR. idk if your a girl or a boy, but if your brave enough to swallow 12 pills in hope of death your brave enough to slap/punch/whatever to them guys if you want, just try not to give them serious harm but let them know you think their all shit cause that’s all they are. next time they push and if your in a somewhat crowded place just shout at the top of your longs “your not worth shit” or something you’d like to say. you shouldn’t get in trouble cause they’ve been bullying you wich should be intolerable in schools but hey if you do its just a detention. you say they like your anger well that’s the reason i say do in a crowded area, that way you belittle them and everyone will naturally label them as losers.
only if you want though
Okay I have to comment one last time!!! What I would do is exactly as MyChoice said, personally I would wait for the most crowded spot on the recess yard, let them commence with making fun of me, and then picking one of them out and punching him right in the nose. The world is saturated with cops now and surveillance but those things don’t do any good where they’re suppose to, they let these situations go on endlessly, worse, they seem to promote it and provide ideal environments for it, and then punish the victims. Nevertheless, I’d knock one of them down and keep pounding away, but like MyChoice said, one shouldn’t severely hurt anyone. I would do it just enough to break their nose and maybe knock them out, but I wouldn’t take it any further than that. I went through it and had to go to “independent study” homeschooling, where I went only once a week to take tests and did homeowork on my own at home the rest of the week, I did that for as long as I had to before I could get my GED, got my GED and went right into college, which is a much better environment. College tends to filter out the a-holes because they simply wont be able to pass the prerequisites if they’re truly dipshits.
I’m still dealing with being harassed though, and like someone else said on here, don’t let them know it bothers you, the more they see that it does bother the more they come after. These situations exist for many, many people, and I CAN prove it. David Lawson infiltrated a grop of these stalkers and attended their meetings and did it with them. He wrote about it in his book Cause Stalking. Show no fear though, the arena is set, the moon has turned full, people can sense it in the breeze, and the gods themselves have even come out to watch.
“You will bask in the sunlight one day, be shattered on the rocks the next, what makes you a man, is what you do then in that moment. You must look into that storm, and with all your might scream ‘Do your worst, for I shall do mine!’ Then the gods will know you as we know you”
——The Count of Monte Cristo
i think i kno what you should do. just make it look like u dont care watever the fuck they do to you. if they insult u or something just look at them and then look away without saying anything, thatll show u acknolledge their comment chose to not stoop to their level, plus if they see u didnt care they might stop or keep going, if they keep going ignore what they have to say to you, do you really want to let the people you hate most judge you? no! fuck them, its their loss if they choose to not like you.
I don’t know what to tell you. Your situation sounds horrible, and I wish I could do something about it for you, even punch them myself. I know how it feels. In one place I went to school, one boy teased me and spat in my hair. That’s not nearly the same as what you go through every day, though. But it is awful, especially when no one seems to care and some so-called ‘friends’ ignore you or even join the bullies.
I applaud you for managing this long without help, and though I don’t know you I do care about you. If you want, just send me a message at: iniramal@hotmail.com
I don’t know how much help I can be, but I can listen.
Heehee :]
Bullying eh? Tough run kid though you might be older than me xD
Well…starters, fuck em :] your probably x10 stronger than them and hell yea it hurts! But you know what? They enjoy your pain, don’t let them have that damn pleasure!!! Show em your better, stronger, tougher, and show it to them and than….when your older, you’ll be better, you’ll be successful and you can laugh at what they’ve become or try to do to you but failed.
So give them shit, and laugh. Don’t let them get pleasure from hurting you.
Man,
u do not know how much i love every single one of u, though i do not know u.
i know that i should ignore them and all but wat if sometimes its from ur own family members? like ur cousins? what should i do then?
You are being bullied and it is unacceptable. You need to take a stand! You do not deserve this. No person deserves this. Taking your life is like saying they win! Do not let them win. You tell someone at the school. Suicide is a temporary solution to a temporary problem. Do not let those losers still your Joy. I know you are probaly scared of the consequences of telling don’t be. You are at school to be protected and that school better be doing there best to protect you. Email me if you need encouragement. Please. naenae1200@yahoo.com
i can def. help you but know that you need to speak up to someone and say something and know you have all of us that have your back and if you need anyone to talk to or anyone that can understand and w/e its me so hit me up im here and hang in there…my e-mails-mkafan12@yahoo.com