Hi im 17 years old and i have tried killing myself countless times. Im not diagnosed with depression i just think about death all the time. See i grew up in a broken home, moved arond alot staying with family until my parents could afford a house on their own. Everything was fine until i turned 9. My parents told me and my brothers that were seperating. It killed me, it wasnt a quick quite divorce considering my dad lived in the basement of the tme of the divorce.ALl they did was fight. And if that wasnt bad my dad would take his anger out on us. he was emotionally abusive, he use to say we wernt his kids and that w can all go to hell. After my dad moved out and the divorce was being finallized my mom met Neil. me being 9 i thought he was cool. but boy was i wrong, it was 3 months after my dad moved out neil moved in. And thats were my life spiralled out of control. It wasnt even six months after my dad moved ot my mom was engaged. i lost it. A few months later they were married. After the wedding everything hit the fan my step dad became controlling every screw up u get in trouble and my om wasnt protecting us from it. She embraced it. I felt like my mom didnt care for me or my brothers anymore and my brother picked up on that, so he started taking his anger out on me. beating me up throwing me into glass door, an even worse i would tell and show my mom and she wouldnt belive me. after the first year with neil in the house i had tried killing mysle 2 times once with pills and other by hanging myself. All failed attempts. As the years grew on my relationships fell apart. I hated my mom for marring neil and i hated her more for no seeing it. I wish so many times i was dead or neil wasnt there. 2 years ago my brotehrs move out leaving me with my mom and neil all by myself. Im a little slave. And i cant do anything right anymore apparently. If i do something wrong im in toruble. Like i slammed a door on a accident and Neil lectured me for an hour on how to close a door and i had to open and closethe door properly 100 times. Im now 17 as of march and i still life in my hell whole with my mother. I have tried movin in with my dad but court wont allow it due to he doesnt have his own home. So i guess im stuck here in a living nightmare until im 18 if i even maek to that.