im a 13 year old girl who hates life so much i want to die , ive tried self harming ive tried suicide 2 times. but some one up there must be looking out for me cos im still here. life depresses me i dont no what i want in life i push my friends away that now they just dont carre if i was here or not, the only person who ever made me truly happy was my boyfriend but even he couldnt cope with my depression and he left me, and from then everythings got worse, my friends ask me whats wrong with me why am i like this, i sit in my room all day thinking , torturing my self inside , i starve my self i do everything i can just to make everything negative but i dont no why, when i try to postive theres always somebody there to bring me back down so ive finally excepted im just not meant to be happy that im alone in this world im dieing on unhappyiness , and it hurts so much no one understands what i feel but i no one day il go through with what ive wanted from the start and thats to be dead , and maybe people will care and be sad well they should of been here when i needed them. its sad it really is to think like this about life, but ive cracked i dont want this anymore all i need is one big push and im gone im free from all this.
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sorry i meant 14 year old girl.
I push people away too. I’m 15 and I’ve struggled with…THIS for 2 years already. Eventually you’ll find someone who won’t be pushed away. I’ll help if you need.
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seriously, contact me if you want anything.
thanks , i havent been on here in a while , lifes still the same but i guess im still here so it must be ok,. i still dont want to live. and i no oneday something will tip me of edge its like a time bomb im just waiting.
I know that most people hate to hear other people say that they know how you feel, but i really do. Especially with the happiness thing. I always feel like i am not meant to be happy as well. if you need to talk i can help you, or at least try to.
a.m.lapietra@gmail.com
if you are 14 or 15 doesn’t no matter,if you know you suffer from an illness such as depression and you are here crying out for help it means that yes you want to be hear! the only think i can share with you is that when i was your age i had traumatic event that change my life and some how i identified with you in saying the” hate life “quote but talk to your family it is help out there find out what is wrong with you open your heart and mind to explored and possibilities so you don’t miss out so much in your on experience that is life.
this helps for me when i am so down that not even my pills or almost anything seems to matter.
my pets,especially my dog cute face saying to me please feed me and please really really quick take me out need to pee
please don’t give up…
You are 14. You will get over this. Right now, you’re being your own limitation. Your friends family ARE THERE in front of your eyes. It’s not that they’re no there when you need them, it’s just that you aren’t telling them. They’re not telepathic. They can’t know exactly what you’re feeling if you don’t say anything. Your friends are obviously concerned for you and care about you, so you can talk to them about whatever feelings/problems you have. You can also tell your parents. You are their baby, they love you. Sometimes it still surprises me how understanding my parents are.
Boys at your age shouldn’t even count as having a boyfriend because they’re still extremely immature and don’t know how to deal with real relationships. They think it’s all fun and games, but when things start to get serious is when a they break up. When you are older, there will be a million other (and better) guys to meet.
Don’t get discouraged whenever anything goes wrong. Just keep trying. Thomas Edison went through about 1000 trials and errors before making a lightbulb that worked. Imagine what would have happened if he gave up on his first failed try because he thought, “boohoo I failed this time, I guess I’m just not meant to succeed and will die of unhappiness”. We would still be lighting up our homes with freaking oil lamps at night. Things won’t magically get better if you have been depressed for so long. It takes effort to help yourself and make positive changes, and there WILL be setbacks. But that doesn’t mean that you are doomed to a horrible fate. You ALWAYS have a choice to do something about it.