shoot myself

i thnk i got throat cancer. i shouldnt complain though your only as healthy sa you feel. your only as healthy as you feel. she wouldnt tell me. i didnt know anythng about the thing and i tried to say somrthing who int he right mind woudl rell me that but before it is too long as then you cant return to the begining coz its all out of hand. someone pls help me i said there was a line went stright across and the envelope was there unopened i will never open it!