i’ve had suicidal thoughts since i was in middle school. i thought they’d get better over time but they’ve only gotten worse… i’ve tried killing myself more than once but i backed out at the last minute because i got scared. i think about it all the time though… the thought of dying makes me feel calm. i had it all planned out too… i’d ask my friend to let me borrow his gun and then i’d go to the mountains. just me and that gun. i have a boyfriend and friends and i love them all so much, probably more than they realize. but i just want everything to go away.
im a terrible person.
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No you’re not a terrible person for wanting to leave all of the pain and misunderstanding.it’s a feeling that not many people understand,they say that suicide is selfish but THEY don’t know what it actually feels like to ABSOLUTELY not want to be here anymore.The fact that you are still here means something though,just like me.Hang on in there,even though you don’t want to.I am,I am ,cos that’s what we need to do in case ONE DAY we wake up and feel better!I want you to stay…..
First think why?
Then ask yourself if it’s necessary…
ur not a terrible perso…look if any victim of bullying wants to talk just email me i know how it is to be bullied and i managed to make it stop..maybe it was luck?
lilmex95@gmail.com