I’m sick of this.

So, on saturday i planned on coming out to my parents. I am bisexual and was going to tell them finally. but i dont even know if should now. They have been ignoring me so much. When i try talking to them they just pretend to listen. My mom loves her grandkids more then me. and me and my brother both know she favors my sister. I am so sick of it. I hate my family. I mean everyone. they all talk about me behind my back because i’m always dressing up in black and listen to screamo. I think its pathetic. And when my brother found out i cut, we had an arguement and i told him i hate how no one understands me. and he just told me to go cut myself. :/ that hurt so much. He was the only person other then my best friend who past away recently[R.I.P. Amber.] who understood me at times. and now he doesnt. My friends are also not what i call friends all they care about is there hair, and if they look good. I hate it . I thought about suicide so many times but never got around to it hoping things would be better. but they havent.