I went to an ultrasoundÂ with my sister. When I saw the baby I just felt.. reasons to keep living. It’s her fourth baby, finally a girl. My nephews follow me around and what kind of example am I setting for them by being negative and self harming. She is a reason to make it til March. The boys are 3 reasons to keep living and to change the way I see myself, other people and the world.
I know it’s hard to just change but it needs to happen for me and for them. I’ve started by throwing out all my self harm stuff. Yes I had a box of stuff, and picked up a copy of the feeling good handbook. I don’t know how well this is going to go but… gotta start somewhere. I’ve also deleted emails and numbers of people who’ve I’ve allowed to use me.
Wish me luck in my journey to finding the happy me I used to be and being one more survivor.