ive been labled as the worst offspring in my family. the adults think i wont get anywhere in life and my cousins just call me stupid. They laugh at my dreams and havn’t bothered to save money for college cuz they think im not good enough anyways. mayb theyre right. mayb im not good enough to get to college. there goes my dream. if i dont hve a dream or family, then perhaps friends? not a chance. to all of them, even one who i called my best friend, im just another person. things were no different from when i was a kid, so why should it change now? cuz i tried harder? doesnt count for shit. so i dont live for my family, i dont live for my friends, and i dont even live for myself. so then whats left? why m i still here? if i have nothing to live for, then i i kill myself i have nothing to lose. but y cant i kill myself? everytime i hold the knife to my chest, i just cant do it.
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I think a part of you wants to live.
oh yea i definitely want to live. just not like this. i lived by the saying, “people who suicide are pathetic and run away from their problems like cowards” and i still live by it. sometimes its alot tho…just wish i had someone to lean on
don’t give up on your dreams just because no one supports you. achieve them to prove them wrong, and even more just for yourself. and when you do please do rub it in their faces, because they’re obviously idiots.
i dont think im even capable of completing my dream. its not something anyone can accomplish. thats wat makes it a dream. its only real in ur head.
What is your dream? How old are you?
In my opinion, the saying is not completely right. First, suicide needs a lot courage. Not everyone who wants to die has enough courage to kill themselves, so they end up being forced to countinue to live. Second, not everyone who off themselves is to run away from their problems. Like, those who suffer from terminal illnesses and want a dignified death-there is nothing they could do to fix the problem. Besides, not all the suicides are selfish. It must be reviewed on a case-by-case basis.
well my dream is to be a doctor. but of course im way too dumb for that. as for my age, ill keep that to myself. i agree, suicide takes alot of courage to do. courage is something ive never really had. im too afraid of wat will happen after i die and i also remind myself i dont want to die having a what if in my head. a suicide being unselfish, cant imagine that scenerio. please elaborate
Hey I feel the same way, never accomplished anything I have no reason to live everything is in black and white and I can’t even force myself to kill myself so idk I’m fucked
Never had a gf, wear glasses, 15, male, I can go on and on about myself
I haven’t been able to focus on school so I’ve given up
i cant imagine wat a 15 year old can acomplish at such a young age. u must really want to make a difference. but hey, thats wat we all want right? ur life is far from done. in fact id say this is where it counts the most. this part really decides where u get in life. in my school no one knos what they want to do with their life after they get out, let alone make a significant difference. they just want to go about everyday having fun. if not to make a difference, is there someon in ur life who u want to impress? if its for ur family or something, depending on how they raise u, u might just need to give up. some parents dont praise their children, thats how life is.
glasses can be a plus when ur older hahaha. even at a young age, ppl with glasses dont look that bad at all. its all about how well it goes with ur face tho…well thats just goin off of no gf. giv it time man. i say this to my other friend too (cant get girls cuz he looks like hez in elementary) u gotta wait for that person. if u really arent much to look at, thatl just mean the person who chose u wouldnt give a rats ass and ur bond will be that much tighter right?
oh yea btw that friend did get a girl eventually.
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god i really should get that fixed somehow. i just didnt kno wat to say when i made it but now its just so awkward calling it out.
A suicide can be unselfish. Just imagine this scenario: Someone has a terminal illness and was told that he might have 8 months to live under a treatment and only 3 months to live without a treatment. Plus, he is broke. To have a dignified death and save his wife/kids from piles of medical bills/debts, he chooses to kill himself.
There are many other cases. Like, a secret agent carries out a suicide task to serve his own country or a soldier sacrifices himself to save his teammates.
You are 15, right (read a post you wrote)? You are too young. It is normal for you to feel confused and lost in some way. A lot of teens are like this. You are not alone. I think that you should give yourself more time to see your value in yourself. College education is not really necessary for everyone. Many successful people have no degrees. Find out what you are interested in or/and good at. And then you could make it your own career. I am sorry that you don’t have a good support system around you. When you turn 18, you can move out and leave them. You just need to wait to change your environment. As for friends, real friends won’t walk away from you no matter what. It is not worth wasting your time on those who don’t help you out when you need them most. You could always make new friends. Cheer up!
but ive devoted myself and planned exactly how my future would go. i planned my life and got it together by middle school. to figure out that all the hard work i do and learning that no matter how much i try, i cant live that plan happily, thats devestating. its like idk wat it was all for. why did i work hard. u kno?
find out wat im good at? ive worked hard to make math and science my forte. im so devoted to being a doctor that i made myself enjoy science. ud be surprised wat determination can do. i kno wat im good at. i kno my weaknesses. i kno how to fix those weaknesses and make them my strength. i kno how to do it but nothing ever goes according to plan.
Many people want to be doctors as well, but they can’t be for some reasons. They are successful in something else. You could be like them.
I know exactly how you feel. I have wanted to be a vet for as long as I can remember. I got 6 A’s and 7 A*’s at GCSE this year, suring which time a lot of shit was going on at home. And now have gone and fucked up my A levels. Have got less than 2 weeks til my exams and have done zero revision so far. So believe me, I know how you feel. I’m like you as well, I know how to fix the college part of the problem – do some revision now, but I can’t find any enthusiasm anymore. I feel that if I can’t cope with college, I might as well not even bother with vet school. Besides, doubt I can even get in anymore – my mum has booked me in for therapy and I doubt they let nut-jobs into vet school.
I wear glasses aswell by the way, but have switched to contact lenses recently because I hated them. People always tell me I’m pretty and I have quite a nice personality I think? but I have never had a boyfriend either. I would love a boyfriend and I think now is the perfect time, so I can go out and get away from my family for a bit. But nobody is interested and I’m way too shy to make the first move.
Sorry, I don’t understand here. What is really stopping you from coming true your dream (becoming a doctor), then?
I know how desperate you would feel after you had made every effort to become a doctor but you couldn’t make it happen beause I have been there. The efforts you made in the past are not meaningless. FIRST, it tells you that you need to learn how to stay strong/positive and let it go, otherwise you would lose more of yourself. I know it is hard, but we must force ourselves to move on. This is a very important life lesson. Things like that (not only limited to your career) would happen again. Life is full of uncertainties and frustrations. As you get older, you would see things would not always go the way you wished and then you would find yourself in as the same/similar situation as you are now. So, you need to learn how to cope well with that. SECOND, you should always try to make Plan B and even Plan C as your backups in order to make yourself emotionally prepared. So, when Plan A didn’t work, you would not feel extremely desperate and lost. You would be able to react with the aforesaid plans as a remedy.
first off, to hannah, do u have someone special in mind? if u do then tell me wat theyre like (just out of curiousity). i really would like to help u with that part but unfortunately im not much of a match maker. last time i tried it was awkward to talk to one friend and the other friend was reaplly really really depressed. so i promised myself id never help out anither friend with anything other than hw. if its too risky to emotionally damage them its off limits. anothee thing is if u made it to college having nearly straight A’s its quite a feat. i think u can be a vet. in fact im sure of it with those kinds of grades. all u need is a good reason to be a vet.
second, dude ive tried like as hard as i ever have butni still dont even have A’s at all. i try hard just to get A’s and mostly B’s like all the average students all my school. i thought to myself, its tougher than an average school so thats y but it still isnt gonna help me. thats wat all my cousins and family is telling me. my mom definitely doesnt support me trying to be a doctor. she thinks ill never make it. she doesnt say it unless shes angry and also she always hints that i should aim lower. well w/e man idc anymore. btw life sucks then u die is 15. since that post was aimed at him but i guess i put the post on the wrong thing.
i totally went off track and didnt answer ur question. wats stopping me? my incapability to do as well as everyone else.