i desperately need help

I am also from Asian background (Chinese), and hence I can understand and relate somewhat with your experiences,.but I think in India the pressure is a hell lot crazy isn’t it?

What I want to say for now is that there are really 3 options, if you still want to LIVE and perhaps found a lot of good surprises in life:
1. Change ur parents’ mindset. try to convince them that Life is not limited only in exam, try also to make them understand how you feel.
Also, isn’t there any other alternative or option, other than this?
2. Change urself. Being sad, angry about it is fine,.but you also know that it doesn’t really solve anything..so you need to find other alternatives or options.
3. Change ur location, environment. The very last option that is WORTH to try. If you have the guts to end yourself, then might as well TRY changing from that hellish environment. Trust me, you and ur life is far more WORTH it than just your environment.
If you don’t like where u are, try to change where u are.

Bottom line: you have to TRY first, before choosing that ultimate no-return path: death.
‘Cuz there are indeed things that are worth living,.but u just can’t see ’em now, because of ur circumstances and environment.

The world is a vast place. Not a small place limited in entrance exam ONLY.