why oh why……. life is miserable.
i have always been a fat fuck since young.
i began the victim of bullying in school, and all i knew was to cry everyday.
i have no one to speak to because i would only get the same response of “you are who you are, you can’t blame the rest for laughing at you”.
but i couldn’t lose weight.
things got a bit better when i move up to secondary school.
still, life wasnt any better because the criticisms just got nastier as the proficiency of language moves up to a higher level in the people around you.
maybe i am petty, but what did i do to deserve your cynicism? i wasn’t welcomed in school, and my family just don’t understand me.
bascially, it feels like i have been a lone man on a deserted island. im on my own. sure it gets lonely, but you soon get used to it…
then i met this guy who was kind enough to be my friend.
i liked him.
so after a few months, i confessed to him.
but then, he said “no, you are too fat”.
demoralised.
i started to buy slimming pills and replace them as my meals.
have been going on for some time and its quite successful.
though getting back to a normal diet was painful.
so life went on and came university.
i wasn’t very smart to begin with and so im struggling.
i can’t handle the stress and how the scholars are pushing me down the bell curve.
i just hate life because everyone else cares for themselves.
nobody will help u when u need it.
fucked up.
my love life isnt smooth either.
the next guy i fell in love with is after my friend.
i feel like im being tortured mentally.
maybe i should just give up
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I can really relate with you, im 19 years old, I’ve also been overweight my whole life. I was made fun of and rejected by guys because of my weight alone and always told by people “I’m pretty but I just need to loose some weight” I am also a college student and understand how hard it may be but just understand that one day you will get through college and get through everything. Don’t base your life off your weight or let your weight control you because I did that for a long time and i still do sometimes and it makes me miserable. Let your personality shine through! You are going to school, you are doing something great with yourself which is a lot more than many people out there can say so don’t give up especially because you will get past it and you will come out even stronger, smarter and happier than when you started.
hey i can really relate with you..weight has been always a huge issue in my life ive always had more weight than i would like to but i guess i lived ok with that till junior high when i felt i had no boyfriends or anything cause i was overweight and living with that frustration its the worst so i started to diet to a point were i became anorexic and lose a lot of weight that i gained really fast as i started to binge to feel better and that has been my life eversince…starving myself or eating as a cow and never feel confident of myself…well that confidence as i know now is not on your weight of how fat or thin you are…if people cant accept you the way you are then fuck them…i know it is easier to say than actually do it but you deserve better than that…the guy who rejected you was a jerk and maybe it was for the best that you didnt end up with him…college sucks most of the times but not everythin is so bad i guess…i just think maybe you just need to relax look for some help and focus on yourself and let the rest of the worldd just fuck off if they cant accept you the way you are…i know its hard but try to hold on and be sure that you did anything you could to fix your life before giving up…