Life seems so complicated. Why should it be so difficult to live? I have a kid and yet I feel like a bad mom. I have a boyfriend and yet I feel like he deserves so much more. I have a job and yet I fear I will be fired any day.
Every single day I think about killing myself. I envy my brother because he had the courage to do it. My dad says some people have that thing in their brain that allows them to not hesitate. My brother had it unfortunately I do not. If I did, I would have died a very long time ago.
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I feel the same way. All the time I wish I was strong enough to do it.
Sorry bout your brother 🙁 How’d he kill himself? And im sure he was scared when he did it
It doesn’t matter how you feel, our feelings or thoughts don’t matter ultimately….what matters is your child. Their thoughts and feelings matter.
I can’t imagine how difficult it might be for you…go easy on yourself. I would think you are doing your best…if you went you would know right away that your child will not have you to be them as they grow up…are you certain? Make healthy decisions that are in your child’s best interest…at the same time you will be helping yourself. Selfless acts come back with rewards…Be well. Good luck to you.