Have you ever loved somebody like with all yourÂ strength? like Eminem said:
“Have you ever loved someone so much, you’d give an arm for?
Not the expression, no, literally give an arm for?”
But what happens when the person who you love leaves you? Can you start all over again? Like erase everything from your mind and say “ok I’ll meet someone else”. I don’t, I was supposed to beÂ happilyÂ married with the love of my life and then she left me… the thing is that it’s been more than 2 years and I can still not recovered, it seems that she left me and she took everything, the sun, the air, the happiness… the life it was inside of me. People says “Hey you just need to go out and find someone else” is it that easy? because I can’t seem to do it, am I too weak for that?
My whole world it’s fucked up now, trust me I’ve been trying to straight this shit up and date and stuff but every time I look around she still there notÂ physically but she is always in my mind, like a ghost, I recently quit from my job because I was not motivated enough but everyone believes I quit because I’m lazy they don’t seem to understand how hard it’s been for me and I know there’s more people with more issues and don’t complaint at all and that makes me think I’m not prepared for life. And my issues with my mum are the cherry on the top sometimes I just want to sleep and never wake up I send all day long thinking about suicide but I’m notÂ determinateÂ enough and that makes me feel pathetic cause I don’t have the balls to do it. I look myself and I hate what I see and no one seems to understand me…