I am 41 and a no hope waster, with no prospects. I am a miserable small dicked twat. My wife has left me for a patient that she treated in her hospital. I have my 10 year old son who I am trying to care for and do everything he used to do. It is all so overwhelming and I am slowly dragging him down with me. I have no friends and every minute of the day he is not with me I cry. My wife was my world, married for 15 years. I dont see any future, but despair for him. I grew up without a Dad and by killing myself, I know it would destroy him, then think that it may be the best thing for him. I cannot go on much longer
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Because you have a son who really does need you, I would ask that you consider getting help for his sake. He probably already feels bad that his parents’ marriage ended, and he really does need some continuity in his life. Since you already know the issues of growing up without a dad, please think about getting help and sticking around so that your son can keep you in his life. Fathers are just as important to kids as mothers, and he loves and needs you.
Not trying to give you a cliche – you have a unique opportunity to parent your son despite not having a father. I had a father who drank and was abusive to my mom. We look at our challenges and say f*** it. Pain is a huge teacher bros…I’m 40 & agree with you….I used to sing and had a great life. I struggle every day with what I’m doing here.
But you have no idea what your son’s experience would be without you….your HIS lifeline-and what a great kid he looks. Your wife was your world, now she’s not…you have your son and you-just as I write this “Someone to Watch Over Me” is playing….poingnant brother. Where you see garbage, I’m looking at treasure – bros. I’d fight for you, why not you fight for you….. you can hit me up at clnrch7@yahoo.ca All the trash talk you’re hammering yourself with doesn’t mean s***. It’s not true, just you’re judgement…take the judgement out of the equation and just make the best choices you can make…who
Ran out of time at the web cafe I was at and couldn’t complete post….if you go, your son will think it’s because of him and take it personally….”why did my dad leave me”….and that’s sets up so many abandonment issues for the future and so many us have that issue…it’s a killer. He doesn’t deserve it, and you love him…so live for that purpose and I have the sense (even if things are still hard), you’ll have glimpses of happiness. For the love of your son…focus on that…it will help! Best wishes! SS
Fight back! Don’t let any woman come between you and your boy! No woman is worth that! Fight back show her you don’t give a shit if she gone off with some other guy ***** will wonder what happened and think she’s made the mistake then shell be right where you are. That’s the thing most women thrive on making some guy unhappy! Oh thus guy did that to me my ex did this to me how many times you heard that. Turn it around and FIGHT BACK!!! Your boy needs his dad! YOU!
Hah, I knew amidst all the mature and composed (sensible) answers there had to be SOME misogynistic pig making this into a “no woman is worth this cause they’re all bitches if they leave you yadda yadda..” While I agree that no PERSON is worth taking your own life for, I disagree that you have to make this into a wee-wee version of the story (@Viggen)… Try to relax. Calm the testosterone, it’s not doing you any good now that humans are evolving past mindless brutality. Thanks.
Now that that’s over, Mark1969, I’m very surprised that you could look at that beautiful face (with a trophy) and think that nothing is worth anything anymore. That little boy you see there in that pic (assuming that’s your son) is not only beautiful… he’s a whole other SACRED life form.. created with YOUR help. A piece of YOU will forever live on in his genes. You think you’re worthless? Hah! You are wrong.. I KNOW for a fact that you’re wrong.
15 years is a BIG chunk of your life… so please know that it is only NATURAL that you would feel this way. Your feeling like this isn’t a FACT that you’re worthless, it’s a FACT that you’re natural… You’re healthy… (unlike people who take it to the bitter end and blame ALL women, ALL ethnicity, ALL this or that….) You seem a lot more humble.. Unfortunately, you’ve also seemed to buy into the media crap… “small dicked piece of shit…” excuse me? Do you mean this figuratively or literal? Figuratively, that statement makes no sense. You are none of the sort… You are a human being with GREAT potential…
And if you meant that sentence literally… um…. take it from a petite young woman who’s modeled in her past… Not being so big can be a relief and a lot less intimidating to a lot of women. 😉
So get out there, see this as a starting point — your life didn’t just end — it’s just beginning! A new phase… You’re 41 years old… so much to accomplish. You know how many lonely people are out in the world? Especially good women who share your age and feel like they will never find the right guy in their phase.
I know this message is very late… but just to let you know that supporters are still out there, I write you this message.
P.S. I hope you have a lovely Holiday coming up. Hope you’ve listened to reason and are looking forward to all the future potentials that lie ahead.