I wake up in the morning tossing and turning heart burning. I dont know what to do. I hate everything. I stand here and act as im fine no one knows im struggling im just putting fake smiles on and hoping people believe me. I dont want to live anymore. I see god as a figure I should believe in but I cant. I cant find myself to believe what people say. I listen to christian music but all I hear is sadness and hoplessness. Im going in a circle and its going to kill me. im told I control my attitude but everything leads me to be sad. I see my life as hopless and just hope I can pull out before its to late….