My child died and he was only 8. I’m heartbroken and I want despairingly at times to be with him. I tried several times today to hang myself with no success. It has been 7 months and I just am in a sickly marriage with arguements over religion… right now I’m very angry at god and my wife doesn’t get it. Life is a test… she says…. well, this kind of test sucks. I can’t imagine a loving being putting me through this just as a “test”. We argue a lot. I hate it and it makes it all worse. I don’t know what else to do.