My child died and he was only 8. I’m heartbroken and I want despairingly at times to be with him. I tried several times today to hang myself with no success. It has been 7 months and I just am in a sickly marriage with arguements over religion… right now I’m very angry at god and my wife doesn’t get it. Life is a test… she says…. well, this kind of test sucks. I can’t imagine a loving being putting me through this just as a “test”. We argue a lot. I hate it and it makes it all worse. I don’t know what else to do.
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i’m so sorry that you lost your child, that’s horrible…
you and your wife truly needs to communicate because you both lost your child and you have to be there for eachother help eachother get through this. Please talk to her often and when you feel you can’t talk to eachother, go together to councelling. personnaly I don’t believe that God himself did this. Give it time to recover from this and don’t isolate yourself. wish you the best.
“…right now I’m very angry at god and my wife doesn’t get it. Life is a test… she says…. well, this kind of test sucks. I can’t imagine a loving being putting me through this just as a “testâ€.”
Brother, I know what you mean.
she must understand that you’re angry at God, even if it’s not his fault, she must at least understand it. I personally don’t think that he’s testing you, he wouldn’t take such cruel test, because God loves you. loosing your child is not nothing, i just can’t imagine how sad you both must be….just give it time and you’ll get better and think about that your child is at a happy place now.
Life is a test…when you’re presented with this kind of thing you’re not meant to argue, you’re meant to band together and support one another. I could understand a child wanting to die when they lose a parent…but this seems a bit odd. And I don’t mean to sound dis-compassionate..this is serious.
There is no right or wrong in religion. There is only the willingness to be open to give and receive love. It’s the only real force in the universe.
Perhaps your son’s soul said it was time to leave….why are you angry at God? There are medical intuitives…people who are strong Spiritual mediums who could provide you with some answers. Do some research. Death/suicide is a lesson and test for those who remain. Your son’s dying may have put into action a series of events your meant to go through in order to grow. You of course will need time to mourn…so mourn and celebrate your son’s life and how grateful you were for having him even if for a short time….Blessings.
billbop,
if you believe that your thoughts, your words, your actions are right, why don’t you enforce it absolutely ?
If you think it’s right to follow your child to the grave, then it’s right to ensure your wife first put into the grave before you do.
If you think your thoughts are gold (not shit) then realize it for them to see.
If you think God is never be an a**hole to put people to test, then why do you make yourself an a**hole to prove your point is right, or others to be a**hole as wrong ?
While you realize right or wrong is never the purpose, but settlement is, then there will be no war needed to prove a point.
Why gave me just half a glass of water, replace it full NOW.
When you can say thank you as a gratitude instead without complain, she’ll be pleased to get you further glasses from time to time though still half full.
Complaining can just leave you all alone till you crawl to your grave.
An underaged girl files for rape and the man will juridically be punished.
But it takes time and delicate evidence to see who provided the opportunity and who provoked it, if to reach the bottom of truth to ensure it’ll never happen again.
A western girl dressed sexually in Muslim country where women’s body are all covered and eyes even veiled, but was raped.
Freedom of self, but enforcing people to behave the same ? Who’s in fault ?
Right or wrong sometimes is never the topics to argue, but respect is.
A barren woman will thank god while she finally can conceive a child.
But a slut will curse god for her pregnancy that scaring all pretty boys away.
It’s just a matter of knowing where YOU THINK you are, and respectfully understand where they think they are.
If you can agree that not right of stomping an innocent snail to death, you’ll understand life is to respect its term of existence on earth, and not to glorify the term of its death like a vermin.
cherish is the word.
I hope you can find peace within this tiny word, consisting ‘her’, ‘rich’, and may be so on.
God give and taken away…
we mere humans can’t fight against the forces of Nature, Universe, Life and Death..
but I see how humans everyday are trying to become more like god