I was caught shoplifting yesterday and i just turned 18. I’ve been accepted to a lot of colleges and i have a lot of things coming up this summer and graduation. But i just threw all of this away by making a stupid fucking decision. My mom went through hell when i was 16 to get a shoplifting case off my record so i could get into college. Now i just threw it all away, I have to tell her, but i cant. She will be heartbroken when she finds out and i cant do this. I cant sleep i cant eat all i can do is think about how badly i fucked up, again. I dont want to live anymore, i dont know how i can. I’ve ruined everything, everything i’ve ever worked for everything my parents have ever worked for, and now i just feel so alone. What should i do?