everytime i get close to someone they either leave me or really hurt me, and iÂ mean badly… My homophobic father is not making it easy for my brother (he’s already out), or me to even come out. My boyfriend knows im bi and he gets jealous when im around girls… lol he laughs and acts like he’s not uncomfortable but come on girls can read guys like books! He is on the other hand getting on my freaking nerves… i went to a website that tells you your ideal suicide and mine is railroad decapitation (ouch!) at the end of the survey they tell you your ideal suicide and then they say a bunch of mean things to make you do it….(i didnt fall for it) i got enough problems already… boy! did i get off topic…. oh yeah… i can’t trust anyone except for the people here… you guys are the best just saying i think this site is the reason im still here.