No more debate. Helium method is decided. I ordered some stuff from the exit people in australia. it arrived last friday.
i’m so consumed by my doom that nothing else matters.
i know it’s selfish.
i know i’m a horrible person.
i’ve been diagnosing myself for years and gotten prescriptions from doctors. it’s no use. life is for the beautiful. life shouldn’t have this kind of ugly in it.
i just need to order my helium tank and this friday, i’m doing it. i just can’t keep up with life anymore.
i have no help. i shit on everyone. i’m so full of shit even i hate myself. i mean hate. like i want this over now.
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you could try eating your face.
Blood your shit your a man pay for it your strong?
you should get off this eat yoiur soul loser. ok come back at me
but in real world i you would get a kick in.
Are you from Australia?
its your sure?
Hey…. you don’t have to do this. I know it must feel like you do, but no matter how much you hate yourself, and think you’re worthless, it’s not true. Feelings are feelings and it’s okay to FEEL that way, but that doesn’t make it true. We care about you here and think you’re worth loving and caring about. If you’ve done bad things, well – you’re among friends here. We’ve all done bad things in our life. You’re not alone there, and you’re not alone in how you feel.
Talk to us. What’s driven you so far? Drop me a line if you like. I’d love just to listen. carin@uoguelph.ca
I want you to know that you are loved by God. I believe that he doesn’t care what you’ve done – he wants to forgive you and he made it possible by dying on the cross as Jesus. So if you trust him with your life, you can start being healed and eventually go to Heaven – it’s the only way. On his timing. Have you considered whether you’ll go to Heaven or Hell when you die? God made you and knows all your unique and beautiful qualities. He thought you were worth saving, and so do I. You can have a relationship with him – http://www.knowgodpersonally.org has answers to a lot of questions people ask, if you don’t want to talk to me.
Please just put it off for a little while if you can. You can always choose to kill yourself later, but death is permanent. You can’t choose to live again.
How are you gonna do it with helium , i mean is good to know
I really hope you dont do this, im not going to repeat what everyone says to suicidal people like us because lets face it we dont listen we are set to doing what we want to do. I read this 5 minute thing when I googled “I want to kill myself” to see if i could put myself off by other peoples stories when they’ve had worse than me and made it through, I read something along the lines of this: you all want relief right? but relief is a feeling and you dont feel when your dead. Some part of you wants to stay alive thats why you made this account because you didnt want to do it straight away. Just think for a while it’s all I ask of you. Breathe and let it out. Stay strong and hold on. You have a future, make one for yourself. You are beautiful to someone.
google it hugo.
mango- i want a permanent solution. i’m tired of living like this everyday. i barely get by trying to solve the problems in my head, much less dealing with everyday life….
crying on the inside – no. USA