This is the free me who just had fun and got out and partied, now im just boring all the time my friends want to hang out i just want to sleep i cant get out of this funk. im trying to be more positive and be strong and tell myself things will get better but they just suck right now and i feel selfish in a way because i want to put my grandma in a home because im not fit to be taking care of her all the time when i can barely take care of myself but she wants to die in her house but she cant be left alone and i have to work and its driving me nuts i dont know how to handle this part in my life and no one will help me take care of her my aunts and uncles suck dick hahah jk but really they wont help!!!! any advise friends and listeners?
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i dont have any advice, but i think your problems are real, i just dont believe thats you in the pictures you’ve posted on here..
Well it is u can face book me if u want lol
I don’t want to be rude, so I’ll refrain. I’ll just say good luck.
I think you’re truly beautiful and very selfless, If that makes any difference x
babyluke dont you think beautiful people get depressed or suicidal? and I dont think she is trying to impress anyone on a suicide site:) Regarding your problem I can completely relate with the whole wanting to sleep all the time and boring life, my life is about as boring as it gets. I have been through the whole partying phase and now I am too old and just dont have the energy.
Cant you get a live-in nurse for your grandma for when your not around? Are your parents not in the picture?
My dads an alchy and on the run with a warrant out and my mom works a lot and the nurse thing would cost money and the only way to pay for it is with my grandmas house. Its very hard and I’m not trying to impress anyone but those cute fun pics are the person I used to be and I want to b that way again
i dont think its fair you have that responsibility like its not at all how old is she?
She 85 and has elsheimers and dementia
wow that is a big job, no wonder you dont have much of a life. Just taking care of her must take over your life. Having Alzheimer’s I am sure she doesnt know what a burden she is and as it progresses she is going to be too much for you to handle if she isnt already so you will need to put her in a home eventually against her will.
I no but its just very hard on me and she still knows who I am and she still knows what’s up she just hears noices and is crazy but she loves me and I feel bad
how can you have any life at all if you have to spend every minute with her? I am sure that is part of the reason you are in a funk.
It sucks to be the only ‘responsible’ person, especially when you’re not able to handle the responsibility. I was just about to post something about that. I don’t know the solution… Should you just pack up & leave? That might force your mom & the others to do their duty. Or they might just send her to a home. How do you cope when you’re the only one who cares?
I think if the happy you was in there once before, she can come out again. As soon as you figure out a solution for this problem, you’ll be one step closer to the happy you. I think the nurse idea is the best, even though it’ll cost. But isn’t it worth it to get your sanity back?
Yes it is worth it but we will see one day at a time ya no