Today I felt out of place i felt mentally unstable im trying to push thru anxiety the panic the hand tremors that come but i constantly receive negativity thru ways that shouldn’t be expressed to me im 24 and know that i should just be able to deal and not worry about it but it bothers me im trying to make it in the world and i just wanna fell loved at times but negativity always seems to find me and when i fell low i do things out of spite to myself to make my self fell loved taking risk and living fake for a moment to subside the feelings at hand i dont know i always seem to revert to the things that make me fell better becasue i have nothing to reach out to when im at the moment i have my friends but i dont wanna burden them with my problems.
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Hey. You can talk to me. I don’t really know why I’m alive, but I feel like I’m alive to help the people who are going through what I went through.
One thing that I always tell myself when I’m in need of love is that I’m my own best friend. I can hang out with myself, because I’m my own best friend. I’m not going to kill myself because I don’t kill my best friends. I don’t cut anymore because I don’t want to hurt my best friend. I try so, so, so hard not to think negative thoughts, because I’d hate to have my best friend be depressed.
You need to think of yourself that way. You CAN have friends besides yourself, but your best friend(yourself) comes first.
If you need help, I’ll be there. Just talk to me.
You may not believe it, but you’re doing amazingly well. You do what you have to do to get by in the moment. What’d ya think of them apples? You’re pushing through, doing your best…I think that’s fantastic.
I realized it takes more courage to show up when you’re in a funk, in a state that makes you want to bolt. I seriously applaud you. And in those moments, have compassion for yourself. Remind yourself of your worth irrespective of how you feel or what you think. You’re warrioring through.
God bless! Cheers!
Thank you softsoul and kasey for your inputs im doing my best and i know that im growing day by day i guess i just hate negativity and things that push me to my limit ive always been they type to hold in everything because its just how i deal so im trying to grow slowly but surely and like you said im warrioring thru with things