How Do We Stop Being Depressed and Actually DO Something to improve our lives?
I need to do what @heartlessviking did- he busted his ass, application after application, interview after interview, to finally land a good job that pays well.
I mean in my case, I am too disabled to work (can barely even bend all my toes) but I need to gtfoh and go overseas. But I literally fucking struggle to even get the basic things done, like getting food, changing my bedsheets, cleaning things, etc. I wake up already tired and sick (health issues) and if I manage to get ONE fucking thing done in a day, then it’s a good day. When I was healthy, I used to do like 4x the amount of stuff a normal person did. Yes, I was the typical hard-working super achiever kind of person. So this kills me to be sick and not be able to do anything- even ‘simple’ things like cleaning/laundry/taking out garbage/etc. Literally everything is hard for me and things pile up, and then I get depressed bc I didn’t get anything done, bc I was too fatigued.
Anyhow, I need to make plans to leave this country- but I am not working towards that. Ecuador is not politically stable. Peru (costs more to live) is also politically unstable. Can’t move there. Mexico is safe (the good parts) and I can go there, but I’d have to do my research as to WHERE I can/should go, and then do all I need to get there. Also, Mexico is way more expensive to live than South America. Yes, I am that poor that Mexico isn’t considered cheap to me. Also bc the costs of living overseas has indeed up astronomically since fucking COVID.
Anyhow, how do I even get anything done when I’m too fucking depressed to actually DO stuff? I mean yes I can only do so much, but I could do a little more if I didn’t wake up depressed every single day and feel like total shit every single day.
Also bc I don’t have hope, I don’t have anything to look forward to. I am operating on “I need to get out of this hellhole” as opposed to “wow, i can’t wait to wake up so i can do/see/go to x,y,z”
Kinda like voting for the President you hate LESS rather than voting for the President you actually LIKE (but you hate both Pres/VP choices). Kinda like that. Not the best example but y’ll know what I mean.
I’m kinda in the same boat as @husk- feeling so unmotivated bc we have no hope things will be better in the future. it’s hard to push oneself when you don’t believe it’ll lead anymore. and no, it’s not like i can simply fool myself and tell myself “things will be better” and i’ll magically believe it. It isn’t that simple. If it was, I’d love to fool myself into thinking all sorts of happy-happy positive things. But I can’t. Just like you can’t tell look in the mirror and tell yourself you’re happy and poof* suddenly you’re not depressed anymore. It doesn’t work like that.
So sadly I have a shit outlook on life, which contributes to my depression. And I can’t just convince myself to have a Pollyanna outlook or think happy things or think life is going to be great- I just can’t convince myself (believe me I tried bc all the self-help books do is try to make you fool yourself into thinking everything is hunky dory).
Anyhow, idk what to do. I have little energy to do anything (due to depression and due to real physical health issues). And I’m just wasting time while NOTHING is being done/changed.
IDK- I need to be proactive like @heartlessviking did. After idk, was it like 2mo- of constantly going after it, he landed that good paying job he wanted. But how can I be like that? I’ve lost my motivation after realizing what life is really like. Just like even if I was healthy, I’ve lost the innocent motivation to really go after jobs bc most jobs suck ass and pay shit and work you till they extract all usefulness out of you.