I’ve been depressed and suicidal for some time now about several things, but one more thing has recently been added to the plate:
I  know this  doesn’t belong here, but I just found out 5 minutes ago that my grades for this 2nd semester in college are F, F, C, and W…
I need a support system or something because I’m about to cave in from a ton of stress which is stupid because I’m only a freshman, though I haven’t had a break from school since the summer before 12th grade of HS. It’s just overwhelming. Also I’m 18 and never had a job, but I’m somewhat frightened by the aspect of getting one… Does anyone know how to get over this..? I feel stupid for asking.
That aside: two nights ago I thought about hanging myself since it’s the only method I’ve got access to. Yesterday I was finally set free from my psychiatrist because I don’t believe in that voodoo, haha. She said I was getting better and didn’t need medicine and that I no longer have to see her. This is after we discussed that I still had negative feelings and strong violent thoughts of suicide so I’m lead to believe she was a huge quack.
I don’t even know.
2 comments
She is wrong. I think the medication can help you cope. I have had the same thing happen to me when I was not medicated i was failing every class and not eating. My concentration sucked. I have had the same thing happen to me the first semester i took full time. Maybe your major is not interesting to you.
The entire college aspect is not interesting to me.