I worried that he would use work as a loop hole to get out of talking to me.. and i am worried that I was right.
I thought everything would be over back in October. Yet I couldn’t go through with it because I thought that maybe despite his actions he cared.
I have given everything to him…heart body and soul. I would do ANYTHING for him.
Last month however, we were both at a lunch with mutual friends…he couldn’t even say anything to me. I have helped him with his work, I have done everything I can think of to make his life better…but he won’t take the time to talk to me…won’t tell me the truth.
Yet I feel as though he cares…but I know he is a coward.
People say that I am strong..but they don’t know what I’ve done… they have no idea how bad I am suffering… how much I have planned for myself. I just want some peace..I can’t take anymore pain…I’ve risked everything to be there for him..and now it’s killing me…
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=|, it.. troubles(?).. me everytime i hear a story like that, when som1 gets put down because of a girl or boy. I would never let myself be burden because of a girl, and I can honestly say that for sure. Because, to the max =b their are far more greater things that are more important, which to me would be, the world (the conflicts of the world). But mhm, I understand the fear of this situation. Companionship is the keyword here, you never want to be without that, I understand that… I’m getting tired… haha =b hi
haha yea i know how it sounds… but whether it is work, family or relationships, once you give everything you have over a long period of time it can do real bad damage.
I never thought I would care so much about how another person treated me. I criticized girls who got so hung up on guys that they did all sorts of things..it seemed so dramatic. but it’s not only my feelings for him it’s the fact that it’s consistent.. it’s gotten stronger over the years, I still feel a connection but I can’t let him go…he gave me strength and hope.
It may sound pathetic to some of the people here but he is everything to me and I am not ashamed of my feelings.. I just wish things hadn’t left me so self destructive.
acutally, I was wrong. It’s not a matter of boy girl, girl boy. It’s a matter of…partnership, companionship, something like that… I understand. For this ‘person’ to suddenly…just drop the bomb…it would be devasting. I understand. For me it would be my dad =/ if he just suddenly dissapeared… maan..
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acutally, I was wrong. It’s not a matter of boy girl, girl boy. It’s a matter of…partnership, companionship, something like that… I understand. For this ‘person’ to suddenly…just drop the bomb…it would be devasting. I understand. For me it would be my dad =/ if he just suddenly dissapeared… maan..
I tried to kill myself three days after my boyfriend and I broke up. I told myself if things didn’t get better I would in a week, and then we broke up and I thought “that’s it”. I thought it was the worst thing that could possibly happen. I miss him.
indifference -sorry that it didnt work between you two.
xboy- yea it is. I’ve been with him for over five years. Our relationship has been dysfunctional in a lot of ways but I still love him more than anything. I feel as if I lost myself in him so if I don’t have him.. I’m not myself..
everything that I like(d) about myself would be gone. I’d just be left with what I’ve done in order not to loose him and I can’t handle that…