Am I becoming a failure to myself and everyone around me, do I disappoint my every friend and my family. I can’t even be a good boyfriend to any girl. Every thing is the same routine every day every year every time. I can’t express enough how much I want out of Virginia, or at least my hometown. I hate it here, my school is filled with judgmental assholes. I’m useless, so useless, all I want right now is to watch my blood drip an drip and drip and drip. Watch it all drain out forever and save me from this life of nothing.
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I feel the same right now….useless…
Live and Learn, that’s what it’s about. It is a process that involves, one to fuck up, and we fuck cause, we’re not perfect. For some of us, when we mess up, it is so degenerating, then you become frustrated, and you get beat down. You’re being hard on yourself,, and,, that’s a good thing. In this reality there’s nothing fun about life anymore, it is only serious, and i guess only people with… higher conscious sees that. Ignorant is bliss, ha. Now, I’m thinking, accumulating a better insigh of what,, she said. Life is a war… and I’m just a god damn prisoner myself. I’m just waiting… for the day I can become a leader for you all. I’m just worried that by then you guys would have already lost your souls, if you know what i mean. I’m in here for the long run…blasted faith of mine.
Hey Nihilism00 I want to move away too, in an alternate future that’s probably too farfetch’ed, but i wish would come true =), me and you somehow were able to move out from our current location and find our own place ( somewhere ). And together, side by side, we’d take on this War, this War called Life. And on our free time, in our sunlited living room, partialy shaded for a more chillax ambiance, with the fresh but warm breeze carressing by through the patio window, we’d be sitting down on our couch playing some Streets of Rage 2 on the Sega Genesis, or Zombie’s Revenge on the Sega Dreamcast, or maybe Twisted Metal 3 on the PS2. Haha, how about that uh?
Take care buddy, and you all as well.
No Brandon I’m the one who’s completely useless. I can’t ever do anything right. I’m not good enough to be anyone’s friend. Fuck I’m so stupid…
Hi Nihilism00, I do not know how old you are but I agree with everything X-Boy has written.
I have fucked up at things thousands of times and will continue to do so. Sometimes it really hurts too but you know, some of the most successful people in the world have also failed thousands of times too. Yet the reason why these people are successful is because they learned from their failures and kept on trying no matter how times they failed.
I know it is hard and it has taken many years for me to not care too much about judgmental peoples opinions but just do your best to not care what these people think. Focus on yourself and work on improving some aspect of yourself everyday no matter how small it might be.
Your post shows you still care which means you are definitely not useless. Do not hesitate to get in touch if you wish to contact me.
You’re not stupid……the only reason you think that is because you’re focusing on what other people say. You’re your own person, FUCK THE REST!!!=)
You know Brandon, what X-Boy said is right. Riley Morgan too. Oh and AgainstAllOdds as well. Listen to them man! :]
=P I can’t really give any good advice to anyone cuz I’m in a tight situation myself. Hope to talk to you later.
Thank you all for your advice and opinions, I read every word on every comment. Btw hey Liz, long time no see.
Hi Brandon… nothing ever really is enough for anyone eh?
Idk what you mean?
…sometimes it feels like you and Anna don’t love me anymore.
Of course I love ya Liz, I missed you. And I haven’t talked to Anna for some time anyhow.
ok. I missed the 2 of you and I miss the 3 of us being annoying chatterboxes to some people on here.
Ha I do 2
It can be the 4 best friends now that X-Boy is with us.
Yeah of course, x boy is awsome
I always knew he was
Alot more awsome than me 🙂
No you’re both equally awesome.