I fell so dead inside, to me me soul is dying and I can’t do nothing. I hate my body, this is so gross. Everything is the same and I feel I’m falling in darkness. I just want someone to help me. I just want someone to cry by my side. Nobody is there. I can’t cry. I feel if I cry with someone, everything will be ok. But, I’m still here, dying.
I tried to kill myself, I cutted. But one girl said to me “please don’t do that”! And I stoped. She never spoke with me again, I thought “I shouldn’t stop”
Then one friend (who always helped me in my suicidal moments) said to me “it’s better you dead. So annoying” She… She said I don’t make any difference in world, if I’m alive or dead. I know it’s true, but it hurts SO MUCH.
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Oh man people can just suck! I would beat the living daylights outta those people who said those mean things to you.
Hi rikam, nice to meet you! =) I may not be there as a flesh & blood friend but I’ll cry with you here in cyberspace. You can get through this and feel alive again. Try to be happy even by just alittle bit. Whatever works for you okay.
HI Rikam,
I don’ t like to think of anyone on their own suffering like you are. I am dying too and have tried to hurt myself in the past- have cut arteries open etc. I will be your friend if you want one and we can cry together. Email me if you want to chat. madgirl1978@live.co.uk
You make a difference just existing because you are precious!
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