I started (being forced) to live with my dad again…I’m not the same person I really am when I live with him. Everyday I wonder in my head why I’m being forced to be put into misery. Everyday when misery takes me I go off into a sleep and dream about a perfect world, a perfect life, a perfect everything.Then I wake up only to be put through the yelling, the memories, the pain again and again. I wish I could fly like I do in my dreams and for once, in reality, feel free. Misery won’t you ever leave?
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Hey inTheDark,
I know what you mean about not being yourself around your dad- whenever I visit my dad, I can’t help but feel hopeless; worthless; like shit. But then again, I’m always like that so I guess it only worsens around my dad. Not sure if that’s the way it is for you, but I hope things will not be so bad with your dad.
Is it ok if I ask why your being forced to? Is it a legal matter?
Oh man, I know exactly what you mean by going off into a sleep when misery hits. I like to dream about the perfect world; life. I switch off the lights, and lay in darkness. Because when it’s dark, I can be someone else; somewhere else. But then when the lights are back on, I’m thrown back into this pit of misery.
I wish Death would take misery for it’s own and leave us alone.
Yeah thats how i feel when I’m at my dad’s house :/ exactly how i feel.
Yeah it’s a legal matter, tried to live with my mom, didn’t get a lawyer lost in court because my dad had a lawyer. :/
The shadows with soft dark music playing puts me into the perfect dream<3
And love your motto<3