To fey-rayen

Hello fey-rayen. Since I couldn’t email this to you since your e-mail (fey-rayen@gmail.com) apparently doesn’t exist, I thought I’d put it here.

Hi there fey, I don’t usually email people because I talk to them on the site, but you sounded desperate.

I know what its like to have a jealous family. When my mother got married to my father and left her home to make her own family, my mother’s siblings were cruel and bigoted. They spread bad, untrue rumours to people who gave job opportunities to my parents and caused my parents to have a hard time to find a job. I don’t know why my aunties and uncle did that, but I think because they were jealous. Being jealous is for idiots.
Your family seem to put a lot of pressure on you, not directly, but because of their expectation (like your mother working very hard to pay for the fee). This is hard to deal with, since my parents put pressure on me to do well in school; they have high expectations. If you want to make your parents proud, then I would do what you’re doing now, continuing to work hard, BUT make sure you leave time for yourself. All work and no play makes you sad :(.
And for your boyfriend, you have to work that out for yourself. If you really love him and want to spend the rest of your life with him, then tell him how much you love him, and ask him if he loves you back. Don’t be afraid to hide your feelings. When you say he treated you really bad, is that physical, emotional, or both? I’ve never been in an abusive relationship, but I can say if the abuse continues, then break up with him. It might hurt at the start, but I can tell you it will make your life better.

All these are just suggestions that, hopefully, will help you.