at one point in time i was seriously considering killing myself
im 18 right now and just graduated high school
i was fat. i had no friends. i felt like i didnt fit in with my family.
i couldnt ever really tell anyone how i was feeling. it was and is so hard to explain. all i know is that it is a dark andplace. lonley
what i missed the most through my darker days was the laughter. REAL laughter. I couldnt have a real good laugh. i couldnt laugh until my belly ached and tears streamed down my eyes. i missed that so much. it was like my brain knew when something was funny and would force me to laugh but i couldnt feel the laughter. i couldnt feel the happiness.
i can remember the first good laugh i had after i started getting better. im getting choked up just thinking about it. i remember how good it felt to laugh again. the first time i laughed again, a total peace and calmness came over me. right then i knew that everything was going to be okay.
imagine a life where you can say, “i feel okay”… imagine how stress free that life is. imagine.
please get help.
i am begging you with tears in my eyes.
i love every single one of you who has ever felt the way i have.
comment and let me know if you’re out there
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I am getting help. A lot of it actually. It’s not working.
I love you too, take care, thank you so much for posting this! It really made my day. I wish more people would take the time to post stuff like this. 🙂 Be safe! ♥♥