To me it seems as though God has chosen certain people to live out their lives in happiness. These people have an abundance of friends, these people are almost always happy, smiling, laughing. There are more of these people in the world than people like us, the depressed ones. The happy people are everywhere. I am not one of these people, i think i could say that none of us on this site are those people but, I dont know anybody here personally, so im not sure. People keep telling me that God has a plan for everyone, and everything happens for a reason. Well, then why does all of this bad stuff happen to all of us here? Why does God do this to us? Is this part of his plan? What if this happens to us for a reason. The reason being that we kill ourselves. To me, it seems God has his favorite creations. The happy people, who go out and enjoy life. Then theres me. Outcast. Forsaken. Forgotten. Isolated. Alone. I dont go out and enjoy life, I just want mine to end. People tell me that i should pray to God when i need help. Well, I’ve given that up. I’ve been praying for years. It feels like the more that i pray, the more shit that happens to me. But it works for everyone else. I am hated. I am useless. I am worthless. I am unloved. I am hopeless. Why God? Why cant you just end my life already? Or would you like to watch me suffer for even longer????? Im pretty sure im gonna get somebody preaching to me about how wrong i am here, but I dont really care. Everybodys gotta die someday. Why not me earlier?
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that’s why I’m an atheist
I feel that way too, so i know what you mean. i just hope that thingr get better for you some day.
AMEN TO THAT. I agree.
But you know, God calls us out of the world. Are you seeking happiness as the world has it? and yet that isn’t compatible with God’s plan. Seek God first in life. Jesus said “Love God with all your strength.” God understands that you want a sense of peace and happiness, friends in your life, loved ones, purpose. He can provide all of that. He can open doors you didn’t even know existed. But come away from the world, don’t love the world, don’t try to be like the world. The world has nothing for us. When we walk in the light of God’s truth, which is Jesus, He gives us the way to do that, to live in the world, yet be separate. I’ll be praying for you.
Well, theres the person preaching to me just as I predicted
I guess you could look at it that way, just someone out there preaching to you, but you know, God brings a word to us in many different ways, and the fact is this is not a website I went in search of. I was searching for a phrase and it pulled this site up and I hit on it and there was your post. I wanted to respond and so I registered. I really believe that this is how God works. You’re seeking for answers; He’s providing them. He is trying to reach you. Now what you do about that, of course, it has to be your choice.
Wow, you made an account just to comment on a post?