Am not a fighter at all.

September 27th, 2011by chiensombre

Hello, i don’t know where you all come from but at the moment in my country it’s 1 a.m. Am still in school am 17 years old. I don’t know where am going. Everything around me make me sad or kinda depressif. All my friends are in college, so they don’t have time for me. They are all always busy. And i have no one too talk about how i feel. So i guess why not talk to a page called Suicide Project ? I don’t know what i was searching for on google. By the way sorry if, my english is not perfect. I hope you will be able to understand me. I’ve been throught 2 cancers in my all life. The first one at 7 i think, the second one at 14. And now i feel like i miss this time, when i was at the hospital for my medications against my Cancer. Am affraid of the future, i feel like i would just drop everything… and live in the streets and have no money. I don’t wanna wake up in 7 hours.. i don’t wanna go to school. It’s not like, it’s horrible for me to go to school. But still… i just wanna sleep… cause it’s the only moment where am not thinking about all this… about death… about… hope… about school… my parents… my friends… It’s been three weeks since the last time i was with a friend i think… i don’t remember actually the last time i talk to a friend.. I don’t have a Girlfriend cause i think it’s a waste of time.. cause now i know that love is not so awesome like in the hollywood movies… anyway. I think am gonna go back to bed… I don’t understand why people call me a fighter cause i survive to 2 cancers… am not a fighter… am only a lonely scary kid. Who think is life… is not worth to be live. Again sorry for my poor english.

Chiensombre…

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