At first I wasn’t sure if I should post here, I’ve read several posts and some stories really touched me. Here’s my attempt at a short version:
I’m 30, heavyset, have various medical issues most pervasive of which is inattentive add. Like some of you I’ve faced much discrimination in my life. I’m pretty good about getting back on my feet after I fall and falling itself has become an unwelcomed pattern by itself. Recently, I have to take on many challenges. I lost my job which also provided an apartment so lost both work and home on same day. I’m waiting to hopefully receive my first unemployment check soon. I only have one sibling… a brother who has his shit together. Great professional and personal life, even a home owner in an expensive area to live. He also has a spare bedroom that he has refused to me, both now and in years past. I have a daughter who is being raised by a woman who lets just say I passionately dislike, in another state. Due to my financial troubles (which are many and too long to type) I can never afford travel expenses much less lodging so I can spend time with my daughter. The only person I know who lets me stay with him is my dad who is in the process of killing himself by refusing doctors orders. He is on nine different prescriptions and not allowed to drink (per his doctor) as every day he does so puts his life in danger. I don’t have any privacy in his small one bedroom apartment, I just have a corner in his living room where I keep the few belongings I could fit in my car and sleep on the floor.
The accumulation of all of this stress has recently made me feel on edge. I’ve only been through one major episode of depression before (went through divorce six years ago and she’s not even my “baby mama”). I have mostly issues with anxiety and frequently feel awkward socially. My ADD effects my wo