Back to 10. Not that it matters.
More carrots. All carrots. That girl I mentioned that finally matched with me has been jerking me around. Just like she used to do. I don’t want another one of her. I can’t do it again. It took me forever to finally unstick her from my head. I refuse to have this new one become something similar. I’m hoping this doesn’t become a pattern. If it does end up being that way, I just got to cut my losses and bail. Figures I’d find another person who couldn’t be fucked to respond back. Guess I’m not good enough to hold someone’s interest.
For some reason one of the visiting regional managers heard that I had a masters degree. He was surprised. Started talking about “putting me in front of the right people” in order to get an actual engineering job. I was excited for about 5 seconds. Then I remembered carrots. Nothing is going to come from it. Nothing ever comes from it. The two jobs I managed to get interviews for end up having the job position delayed. Typical. God forbid I just get a normal rejection like usual. It has to get drawn out. So now I get to hope and plead that I get the job for weeks before I get the same usual answer. Got another interview Monday. Got to do some weird excel spreadsheet bullshit test. Some sort of logic puzzle that want to see how I solve. Some other thing to fall on my face with.
Just another week down. I played cards yesterday until 1 AM this morning. Took today off to do that. Best decision ever. Now instead of 3 days that I’ll try to squeeze some slight enjoyment out of, I get 4. Getting number and number by the day.