when is my time to go?..

My english language is my fourth language, so forgive me if the grammar or the words are not correct.
I wanted to share my story, to see if anyone is feels the same like I do.
The thoughts, well, actually more feeling based thoughts, started probably since I was a kid. I grew up with an extremely abusing father, and very poor, in a 3d world country. I didn’t had nothing, but I didn’t wanted nothing either (I am talking about nice clothes or toys) all the way till today, when I am almost 29 years of age. Throughout my life it seems I had only difficulties with my life. At the early age of 18 I was sold in a slavery (human trafficking), where my passport was taking away, I didn’t had any rights or freedoms. The one person helped me to escape. He married me to help me, but he wanted much more which I couldn’t give. He was american. So I felt it is time to leave him, and let him move on with his life, but I was his possesion, and he said he would kill me if I left. But one day when He was at work I left. I left to another country (then I was in U.S after we got married). After a while I met a man, who seemed loved me. So I agreed to get married again. In the end I was abused again, but it was much worse because he was a drug adict and schizophrenic, so I had to flee again, to save my own life… Then I started to learn about all religions of the world, to find a peace withing my self and strength to live. I found that all religions are deceiving and man made to gain only profit and manipulate peoples minds.
So I learned about all kinds of other things, to find the reason of my birth and why I am here. The answer that I found, closest to the truth was – I am reincarnated here in human body to gain experience. It might sound crazy to some, but it makes sence to me, after years of studying. So I look around and all I see is how people are brutal, egocentric, without love or compassion even to the children or elders. I traveled half the world, and all I found was horror. Everyone is working for the newest stuff that industry offers, like robots, non stop, going in the trance day after day, angry and unhappy… It brings me only sadness to see the world i am living in, and I feel like i have seen everything in this life. I suffered physically, i suffered emotionally, I lost my child, I know what means to live in the street and sleep in the cold, I know that this world is not for me to live in. I am just waiting for my time to come when I can go away, wherever I came from… Does any of you having similar feelings?
thank you for sharing
Jesebele